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Loosing my sanity fr

So like um idk what's going on. I can't breathe, I keep spacing out I'm just like rahh. I feel sick

Sup guys. You don't really need to read this but it would be nice if someone did. Just kinda venting here. I'm going through a rough patch, school is really difficult rn and honestly I'm loosing hope of me having a successful future. 
          
          My parents are great and all but they are starting to fade away. They don't accept who I am. I love to express myself. If you look at my bedroom it's covered in posters very, colourful. But as soon as I want to dress alternatively and dye my hair, get piercings and wear goth makeup, they hate it. 
          
          They say if I dye my hair they will disown me so yeah that's fun. I love wearing whimsy goth stuff and doing makeup like that but I'm not allowed to leave the house in it. They say I'll be beaten up and kicked. Ummm.. babes, I'm probs gonna get called Emo and get some odd looks. 
          
          Most people don't give a shit. Dressing that way makes me happy, and if you don't like it, to damn bad. I'm so close to rebelling but the thought of our relationship ending kills me. I love my parents but knowing that I can never truly be myself around them hurts.

HAPPY PRIDE MONTHHH ️‍

Sorry, I just feel like I need to talk to someone. I have been feeling quite lonely. I have been finding it hard to stay positive around family and friends. I have been feeling quite left out or that my two closest friends are drifting away. Or that I'm being annoying or too clingy. My mother and I argue a lot and that fact that I'm constantly under pressure to do good in school doesn't help. I took my Chemistry test today and I have deffo failed. Even when people say "no, your going to do great" or "I'm sure you got a good score" I know your trying to reassure me but I know I failed because I couldn't even get the last two pages done. Honestly I have been feeling so fucking lonely that I am having thoughts of committing. I don't have anyone to talk to.

It is show week! If you didn't know, I do musical theatre! we have been rehearsing for 6 months and had a tech and dress rehearsal on Monday and Tuesday  then three days of performing and now tonight is the last  night. I caught a bug and now I can barely sing without coughing :( I need to save my voice for the skit I'm in, so I stayed home from school yesterday and went on vocal rest. My throat BURNS, I have like no appetite at all. Anyway, Umm yeah I just wanted to tell someone.

Wee life update Ig
          Ummm, I have been stepping out of my comfort zone and trying out for roles in theatre. I got one! I am a wife called Sally who screams at her husband. Can't wait. I have so many tests to revise for omg, also I have another theatre thing next week and I might vlog it here through the photos (Blurring out my face tho. Should I do a face reveal? Idk)

bailleyyy, guess who decided to log back on to wattpad and stared to write out! instead of making it a graphic novel on webtoon

NEWS!!!!
          The next chapter of tmnt x reader is being written!!
          AND once the book is complete, I will make one for the new tales of the teenage mutant ninja turtles show!!!!

I feel so bad for not updating, I'm honestly really sorry, If I have motivation I might update on Thursday or Friday. Tbh I don't know why I make these announcements, nobody responds. I was going to ask what book you all wanted an update on.