PuPpO pOlIcE

Sure is fun having my gf call me during a depressive episode saying she's out with the whole friend group because it's one of my friends birthday today. They were all laughing and having fun. Pretty sure I wasn't invited or just not noted about it. During the call, they didn't even offer for me too come down; just telling me a small story of what happened the moment before the call then hanging up. 

Buzzfeed quizzes be out here roasting me. 

All I say is... watch to the end. 
          
          https://youtu.be/WlreNuiJ5KE

Me: People always say to push down negative feelings and kill the problem off. 
          ??: 
          Me:
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          Me:
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          Me: *Me pinning them down and holding a gun* McAny last McF*cking words?

Never gonna be the 'cool guy'
          I'm more the one who's left out. 
          Out of all the characters at school, 
          I am not the one ... 
          who the stories about.

Can I have 2 defaults? Or at least one. 
          Either self deprecating so when I say I'm fine, people understand I'm not. Or atleast not seen as a joke? So when I do say something self deprecating, people don't think I'm joking? 
          
          Because honestly, this is the second time I've been tired of being taken as a joke and last time I was close to moving schools. 
          
          I may be the 'babey' of the group because of my innocence scale compaired to others, but that doesn't mean leave me out until I'm wanted to then be the parent figure. 
          
          I'm fine being the shoulder to cry on, and I'm always happy to be there... but I need a shoulder too but I'm too afraid to turn to anyone. And the day I snap... is the day you'll hate me more than you all do. And then I'll be alone...

It is.
           Not fun. 
            When you. 
              Have a friend that constantly annoys you and finds out also have wattpad so keeps pushing you to give them your account but you don't want them on your account because Wattpad is a safe haven where you don't have to worry about that side of your friend group knowing all your vent stuff and about your gender identity because they don't usually listen to you about it. 
          
          I literally only have one friend from real life that has my account because they listen and respect my pronouns. 
              (Shout out to my little lesbian child!)

Me thinking I finally figure out my gender and pronouns: *searching it up* *Not finding anything* Oh... nevermind then...

Science teacher asks me to do an experiment with Iodine. 
          
          B****!!!! WhErE yOu ExPeCt Me To GeT iOdInE fRoM?!?!?!?!

Hey so I'm really sorry for no updates. I'm working on dukexiety one-shots and also moving my work accross to another account is really hard. I will continue 'Not your fault' for those who acually read that book and want it finished, but I will be stopping my prinxiety book and only doing dukexiety and maybe other ships. I am still a fan of Prinxiety, just not as much as Dukexiety which has taken over my over my heart. Sorry if this troubles some, but I just don't find myself writing it as much as I used too. If you have any questions, don't be afraid to ask.