Sad Vampire Hours

I may not always write poetry, but when i do it sound either like i want to burn down the gouvernment or die. Or both...

Me, a fool: "Oh, i'm sure wattpad on mobile browser works the same as desktop :)"
          Wattpad on mobile browser: N O P E
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          Still not dead! I just deleted the app on my phone and moved over to ao3 to post killjoys fanfic, imma try to drop by here every now and again(if i don't forget again- oop). 
          Ok, bai. Drink some water, fuckers. 
          ~xø boo(new gender, who this)

@Headphones_Kid Hey, how are ya'? :D

Ah, yes, the Wattpad app. 
          
          I swear in their attempt of making things look more 'minimalistic' they're butchering a perfectly good layout, smh

Writing on a computer:
          Inteligence +10
          Creativity +5
          Stealth -20
          
          Writing on a phone:
          Stealth +12
          Speed +10
          Inteligence -25
          
          (Tbh, I do so many spelling erors when I write on my phone it should be more like an Intelligence -40, 'cuz somehow I fail to notice and/or fix the mistakes even when I edit ;-;)

Looking back to 2016 is so wierd 'cuz I can't remember almost ANYTHING from back then. Every time I try and think about it I just feel dread. Like, wth happened then that was so bad my brain repressed the memory of a whole year? Honestly at this point I'm questioning if 2016 was even real
          
          (Hi, welcome back to existential crisses(crissis?) with Firecase)

@Headphones_Kid I'm always passively dying inside, but heartbreak, ho ho ho, that's a whole other thing. I'd like to think I've had a tiny bit of heartbreak and fake friends in my life(once I even got a double combo :') ), but there's still time, I'm only about halfway trough the life expectancy I'm giving myself.
          
          Idk, I'd def teach children SOMETHING, but I'd probably get sidetracked so easily XD

@Headphones_Kid Dating to me seems pretty scary mostly just 'cuz I'm ace and like...98% of the population in my country is a stereotypical cisgender striaght white person™. And me, like the special little snowflake I am, I'm an ace cisgender most-definately-not-heteroromantic white person. So, yeah, dating is v scary 'cuz I'm mostly probably gonna get v easily heartbroken and I only have all feels or no feels. 
          
          Also, mood, even though I probably wouldn't have the patience to actually take care of kids, so instead I'll just metaphorically adopt people 'till the day I die...and maybe become a teacher because dammit all, g.i.n.a.s.f.s(gay is not a synonim for shitty)((by Fall Out Boy))

@Headphones_Kid My parents have repeatedly told me that it's okay if I liked boy or girls, but whenever I brought up not wanting to marry or have a relationship(mostly in report to the ones protrayed in movies 'cuz that's where this talk usually starts from) the response was along the lines of 'you'll understand one day when you're older and you'll get married'. Like, I've had my 'I wanna marry and have kids' phase, but that was when I was like 6 and was also going trough my 'I'm 100% heterosexual' phase. Marriage to me now is kinda pointless because, well, it's just signing a piece of paper and bam! married. As for having kids...I legit have metaphorically adopted all my friends along the way and they accepted me as their placehold mother. I have like...five kids. Which I love very much and will throw hands at if they're depreciating themselves or about to do something utterly stupid. On top of stopping me form dying before 30, but ya'know, that's an unimportant fact.

@Headphones_Kid Lucky! I'm theoretically on a non-posting/commenting hiatus rn, bc anxiety is also a cunt™ and my dad just HAD to go trough his(apparent) yearly check on my account. And then he went to show what he found to my therapist(without my permisson 'cuz it's not like it's my account or anything). Like, most things I post here are memes and dat gay shit™, but I still have the 1 book I write when life really fucks me in the ass. It's there more for the permanence of it, because I rarely delete anything on here(*cough* like my 12 drafted stories *cough cough*), but noooo, I can't have any privacy, I can't like emo music/consider myself emo and god forbid I don't want a relationship(mostly 'cuz I don't see myself living past 30, oops). And then they ask why I talk to my friends more than I talk with them...
          
          Amyway, sorry for the rant, got distracted and the salt was still real like...a month and a half-ish later. Tbh, I probably should dive in my 25+ unread fics in my library because I legit have some from two years ago that I haven't finished.