Hey everyone, I just wanted to let know all know why I’ve been gone these past few months, I swear, there’s proper reason and it wasn’t just one of those indefinite hiatuses that some people randomly go through.
TW: SH and Su!c!de attempt.
These past few months have not been kind to me and my mental health, sure, while realizing I’m trans and getting into a romantic relationship were some of the good things that’s happened recently, the bad things overweigh the good by a large margin.
To put it bluntly, it’s school, my sister moved into the dorms of her university so at home it’s just me, my mom and my dad. My mother and I don’t have the healthiest relationship, I won’t go into detail but to make a long story short, the things she did to me when I was younger has made me deathly afraid of her, especially when she yells, which she does a lot. My dad doesn’t do much about it, it was tolerable until this year, because before, I wasn’t getting yelled at, it was my sister, but now? It is me, and I’m barely surviving it.
Over the past few months, I’ve attempted su!c!de twice, my most recent attempt being just yesterday, and self harmed more times then I can count. I’ve been struggling a lot and writing was just not going to be on my mind.
I do plan on writing a bit more sometime soon, but please be patient with me, I’m a kid still in high school, I have stuff outside of writing I need to do and if I get free time, it’s usually spent doing homework and not by choice.
The next few chapters of “The King’s Broken Deer may be a bit more…sensitive, because I just need a way to vent a little, apologies for that.
That’s all I really have to say, thank you for being patient with me and I’ll hopefully be able to start writing again soon!
Remember to smile! You’re never fully dressed without one!
