"Ciggarets and Pills Burn your eyes, you can take off your disguise, He ain't worth the tears you cry, All you wanna do is Die.."

"It's so hard to show you that I'm happy even when deep within I'm in a corner and I'm crying I tell you I'm fine ,you believe me with ease but the thing is you can't even see, how I feel when you leave without concern it hurts,so please. Open your eyes look closely into my soul,see the pain that I'm feeling so you finally know,what to do when I'm hurting for me not to go far,so please baby please listen to my heart. I'll show you the games that I play when I'm alone,it's like a tic tac toe on my arm with only red rows of x's and O's . Now listen , don't cry for me and I don't need any bucks the only thing I need from you is a whole lot of love, so listen closely to the song that  my heart plays than we'll both be happy for the rest of our days.". 




I feel broken. Shattered. I can't deal with this pain that sits on my shoulders, making it hard to breathe. I wanna cry my heart out, but I'm outta tears. 

He's gone. 

My light in this FUCKING DARK WORLD IS GONE. 

He was my motivation, my happiness, my LOVE. 

And he's gone... 





Smidgit.... Oh smidgit, I hope your happy.... 

I hope your okay... 

            I love you