A_sluty-whore
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(Rant)
I feel so shit in my own body like I physically can’t recognize myself in the mirror I keep annoying and hurting people even when I don’t realize I see life as I game but I’m losing and I hurt people because of that I haven’t treated a relationship like it’s not a game in over a year I just see it as like a collection and I hate myself for that I know I have a sex addiction and I hate that too I’m terrified and anxious all the time I haven’t been truly happy in what feels like years everything hurts all the time I’m just so tired all the time of living and existing I just want to leave and every day I have this realization that I won’t be a child forever and that I physically will become an adult and life isn’t just a game that I can exit out of or reset I’m being forced to grow up and I hate this I can’t function and I hate myself for everything I’m so paranoid all the time but I just lie to everybody it’s like I physically can’t stop and I just want to cry everything hurts and I know I’m just repeating myself at this point but I need this I’m sorry
