AbbagailBella

Guys I'm considering renaming can't stop lovin' you to something else but I can't decide and idk if I want to because it's had that name for so long

AbbagailBella

I'm writing more notes for can't stop lovin' you and I am so close to tears omg. I really need to stop doing this because then I can't mention anything because I'll spoil it but I am seriously fighting demons to not start bawling (no one dies and they don't break up lol)

AbbagailBella

YALL HELP IDK WHAT JUST HAPPENED BUT I WAS CALLING ATLAS AND THEY WERE CHILLING AND ALL OF A SUDDEN I SAW SOMETHING FLYING AT MY HEAD SO I DUCKED AND MY CROCHTED RAINBOW CHICKEN WAS ACTIVELY COMING TOWARDS ME??? I WAS JUST TRYING TO SHOW ATLAS MY NEW CLOTHES I GOT TODAY. Anyways I'm low-key kinda freaked out because it was sitting on the edge of my bookshelf and if it fell it would've fell straight down or to my right. It literally went flying to the other side of my room (which is at least 4 ft) and there was no one else in my room :D

AbbagailBella

Now that I think about it I own a doll face that I got from an abandoned house (that one chp in can't stop lovin' you is actually based off of that trip lol) but she's chill lol. Her name's Carmen and she's hasn't done anything weird so idk. I'm usually terrified of dolls but for some reason she doesn't scare me so I can't really try to convince myself that she did it because one I sound insane and two that would be kinda weird
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AbbagailBella

I went to a balloon ceremony thing to like celebrate (not like celebrate since she died and all but I can't find the right word) and it went a bit differently than I thought. I thought I was either gonna be completely emotionless (I almost never cry because I'm scared of it for some damn reason) or have a mental breakdown (I didn't cry nearly enough and I pretty much bottled it all up) I definitely still need to cry a ton more and ik it's stupid but I'm still kinda proud of myself for crying a bit. Some of us let a balloon go and shared some memories and I started tearing up a bit. I also got some pictures of her and I'm really glad because I barely had any. I got a few of us when I went to her birthday and that was really really nice. I haven't thought about her like really thought about her since the week it all happened lol. I still regret how shitty I was to her for a while because she never ever deserved that. Anyways ik this doesn't matter at all but I just kinda wanted to vent a little because I'm really really bad about not doing it :)