Abby Le Oddest

I'm back to browse for a while. It's been months since I've seen y'all. If you're wondering if I've gotten better or not... no, not really... However I'm here, so yeah, howdy. But I won't be back much longer probs, I basically just don't like writing much anymore and if I do it's texts to people or in this case, these updates. Not that anyone reads them, I just like getting my thoughts out there sometimes hoping someone sees it. I hope you're all coping well with all that the world brings in 2025. Hope the world can show you some peace and happiness. Thanks if you've read this and I really appreciate the past reads of my old works. With that, I sign out, not permanently but for the meanwhile. Maybe one day I'll get back to writing. Until then. :)

It's official. This year sucks. I'm fed up. Why is everything going to crap. I'd cry, but I can't anymore, haven't been able to cry longer than a few minutes all year. I'm just rambling. I don't really have anyone to talk to anymore.

With all these YouTubers who are saying that they're leaving with YouTube and whatever it's not easy. I've got nothing to really do anymore. It's like, they were my childhood, and what I grew up with and now that they're all leaving I don't know what to do and if you could hear how my voice is right now (because I'm speaking this because I don't want to write) I think you'd be probably a little concerned but I  don't know. It's a lot to see all of my YouTubers that I grew up with go away. I was there when they first started and now they're gone like that. Yes they have videos that I can watch but it would just be the same thing I used to watch over and over. You can only do it so much until you have had enough. Wish me luck I suppose cuz I don't know what I'm going to be doing anymore. This year is crappy. Seriously.

Do you ever wonder to yourself if your friends are actually your friends or are just using you. I have people talk to me just for answers because apparently I'm "smart" and they need "help" but I don't think they learn a dang thing. I'm honestly so fed up with society right now.

I know that humans are, you know humans and have feelings but sometimes I wish I didn't have any so I could sleep well without having the guilt of my actions through all my life flash through my head as I try to sleep.
          It's really irritating. I have stuff to do tomorrow but my brain's all like "nah." Ugh karma's a b****.

Me totally not looking at my old drawings compared to my new ones and totally not dying inside bc of how bad they are.

Hey, happy late new years. I hope it's going swimmingly for you. Me and my partner of 4 years just broke up last night and so I'm just... Not in the mood for, well, anything and am not feeling great. I hope you're having a better year than I.

Hey, I'm honestly done writing right now, and I'm putting my stories on hold until I get my stuff together. They've been on hold but I'm making them private until further notice (if that's possible.) I appreciate all of your support and patience, but writing hasn't been interesting, nor have I been able to come up with more of anything recently.

I have terrible news. Tomorrow morning, I have to put my dog down. I've been around this dog since I was 10 and he was a good boy. I have to work so I sadly won't be able to be there for my family. I know he's been in pain, but wish my family, who is in more sorrow than I, the ability to get past this, and get stronger.

Today was soo embarrassing lol I had an eye appointment and we had to get my distance between my retina, so I had to stare at the dude's nose and it was very uncomfortable. I took my glasses without him cleaning them but noticed he was gonna clean them. And he was also being super nice and tightened the sides for me. Anyhow I'm sleepy so yeah. I'll update you peeps more on my life later don't wanna info dump rn lol