@AceMeyomey346
Ok I feel like I need to say this for anyone who follows me.
I do not and can not make stories.
I wish I could but I’m on Safari reading.
So sorry if you’re new and want to know what I write but I can’t.
It’s 17+ on the App Store so…Sorry
⚠️WARNING⚠️ READ AT YOIR OWN RISK!!! If you have any trauma from sexual abuse DON’T READ!!!
My past haunted me today.
I was a dumb kid and allowed someone to sexually hurt me.
I was 8 at the time and he was probably 11. He was my brothers friends little brother.(if that makes sense) And he would tie me to his bed and whip(took a belt and hit my ass or some other body part) me. Today my little sister like touched my butt (we were playing a ‘game’ her dad held her up and had me PLAYFULLY spank her then her and her sister got into a little fight. And then decided to get pay back on me) and I felt so disgusted about what happened to me. No one else knows. And I can’t hold it in forever. I have no therapist so I’m just messed up inside.
Last night I made me and my gf promise rings and I made a cute note. I hope she likes both
I’m bored as hell but today I get to see my gf after 9 days of misery!!!!!! I wanna snuggle her so badly!!!!!!
Do you ever hate yourself so much that you listen to music in Japanese talking about people who are useless while you’re sorry for hurting everyone you’ve loved. I’ve never wanted to cry more. I’ve wanted to die since I was 7. I’ve had depression for almost half my life. But I won’t kill myself. I love all my friends and my girlfriend. And you guys too. My pills some days make me a little more happy then other days they make me wanna kill myself. I always mess up everything. Christmas; I make people sad/mad I feel unwanted. I always mess up everything I mess up peoples happiness.
Thanksgiving; I can’t eat much it all tastes disgusting. I am always on my phone in my own world.
Every day is another reminder that I mess up. I do everything wrong. I don’t know why I’m making this post…I guess I just need to get it out. Sorry if this makes you uncomfortable or make you hate me I’m not good with people or emotions. I love you guys you guys are my online friends.
@AceMeyomey346 You shouldn’t have to feel like you mess everything up. You just have to make the most of it and move on and forget about thinking “oh I should have done it this way instead” what’s done is done and it has brought you to where you are now.
thanks for the follow!! <3
@AceMeyomey346 yeah i get that, im on my chromebook and i use the website. my parents would kill me if they ever saw what was on my chromebook
@XxBtchBoyxX yea I read on Safari since the real Wattpad has a 17+ age restriction. My parents don’t want me doin’ bad things. But when I read on Safari I’m not able to write any books. It’s sad because I’m good at writing and I’ve read enough to write good(gay) stuff.