Acesspadess_13

The thought of her still makes me very mad and very sad
          
          I really don't like my emotions
          

I remember why I stopped venting here it's because wattpad had messaged me to stop and I've been reported from it
          
          Ooopies

I'm bored so I'm just write here
          Life's been eh 
          Makayla broke up with me due to her health and her wanting to be alone 
          And she said it's permanent
          Which i can't get over the break up even though it was almost a week now
          But anyways I only got to talk to her for like 5 days of the break most the time she was gone and such
          I just wished she didn't leave me
          She doesn't talk to me anymore, I felt depressed before after the fact I learned she's gonna move
          I've been sad for other reasons
          I've finally got over those
          But I couldn't her leaving
          It's the 2nd time
          Why should I care? 
          I can't escape it
          I sometimes just can't enjoy things and randomly just start crying thinking about her 
          It's random
          But it's life 
          It is what it is
          I can't do anything
          Which hurts me the most tbh

I forgot I used to vent here L

So I've moved my focus about being sad about the breakup to being worried about her mental health and she's not doing good at all lately and I'm scared tbh

Imagine crying for like a hour because the person who loved broke up with you because their parents told them to and you kinda don't believe them totally not me

I'm so annoyed and sad at the same time due to the fact a lot of people keep telling my gf to break up with me because I'm too "soft" and not "manly" enough bro wtf they been doing it for a like 3 or more weeks and she never told me into today

Ew usernames suck at wattpad imo or I just bad at naming

I love drinking bleach(joke ofc) 
          I'm just tired of life right now:P
          Ummmmmmm
          Yasss queen
          Anyways Im very confused with life, I just want to avoid thinking about life but it's hard not sometimes not me complaining all the time to my gf and like the first week we got together she got me to admit that I'm afraid she would cheat and leave me oopies still kinda think that
          Anyways I keep saying I will finish chapter one remake of my story because I hated it but I'm still working

Idk I'm bored, I've gone on 2 dates already and I spent 5 hours at makaylas house, her dad took a picture of me and her making out which umm idk how to feel about, I didn't know he saw that