i find my voice in music
speak my heart in poems
always tired and sick
never having a home

i sleep with demons
live in nightmares
breathe in poisons
bleed from dead cares

love like no other
hate all i see
don't love my mother
barely love me

find hope in lust
get broken again
go die i must
used always, fuck "amen"

killed by my surroundings
buried by the stress
gone from all poundings
no one's depressed

who cares anymore
i'm out of their lives
i'm lower than shore
but higher than they thrive

the mad hatter is my best friend. purple blue and black describe my life. dark painful bruised mysterious dead. i don't have much to live for so i dance and sing and hide all emotions. i have guys to keep me going but obviously its not the best choice. i'm just living to die now.