❦ᴀɴxɪᴏᴜs❦

to all of you i’m so fucking sorry. don’t worry about me, i’m going to be fine, i just won’t always be here anymore. i’ll check in, just not as much. i’ll still talk to those that wish to, but for now i’m leaving. it’s been a fun hell of a ride with all of you and i wish nothing for the best for all of you.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=OveNvD2i-WY

being in life fucking sucks. but i have to deal with it if i want to see it.

there’s two ways now, for me to talk to him, i can’t begin to explain how much i love him and will commit to him. he is my everything. josh i love you so so much.

i was scared. i didn’t know what to do. my only form of communication was severed. i thought i’d lose him, and i couldn’t do the one thing i had to do because i’m not fucking brave enough. i don’t deserve him, i really don’t. i was once told to lower my expectations, so i wouldn’t be disappointed, but then i’d never be fully satisfied. but he is all i’ve dreamt of, everything actually. when i think of good thinks to duck tape my head’s screams with, he’s the only thing i’m thinking of.

i made one it's okay

you're mine and i don't wanna change that

you ever wish that you could hold someone in your arms? that you could kiss them until you couldn't breathe? i have. its this person right here. this person has helped me feel like i have purpose and no amount of words can actually fully explain that. sweetheart, you actually mean so much to me it's crazy and when i think of a world without you i don't know what i would do. you're absolutely beautiful inside and out, and anyone who tells you otherwise is wrong because ive seen you. you're amazing, okay? and i love you.

hey sweetheart,
          i know you're hurting and im so sorry.
          just know, that im here for you no matter what. i wanna be here for you to rant to or do or say anything to. you're literally everything to me.

i’m bleeding blue at this point, who’s my band aid?