hi!
i deactivated my original account so my drafts & the rebound, were unpublished/deleted. however, since i couldn't bring myself to let the rebound completely disappear, i produced a copy of the story before deactivating ergo the version which you've read (or were still reading) currently resides in a folder & it'll stay there for good.
actually, i've been thinking of deactivating for so long already mainly bc i was getting uncomfortable with the thought that my work isn't really at its best shape. i really do appreciate all the love it was receiving. really, thank you so much. but the thing is, i've grown up. i've changed & i've learned a lot. i was constantly being reminded of how badly written it is & how messy the plot is. it really bothered me. also, many of the people i know in real life were discovering the account & reading my story. i felt so exposed & i still do. i'm proud of how much attention & recognition it got from y'all but i also feel disturbed. in some ways, certain boundaries were being crossed & my privacy could've been overstepped if i just let my account stay as it was. i scrolled through my message board & saw the things that my naive eleven-year-old self posted. some of my first stories were still accessible even though they were supposed to be deleted. they weren't in my list of works or drafts, but certain links still directed users to the actual stories & what bothered me most is my use of my actual name for the copyright statements. i'm not comfortable with the idea that strangers on the internet can learn about my identity so tbh, this action is to assure my safety. i'm just not ready to publicize everything in my life.
however, if you're still interested in reading my works, you can access my other account—@mikerowaved . i'd be very happy to hear from you there. thank you, again, for the love & support you've given me & my works. you kept my young heart motivated & you are the reasons why i'm still writing.
much love,
marielle
