Addictionism

So like I might update early maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. I just want to get my mind off of things and just channel my emotions and energy into my writing. I just need an outlet right now. I know for a fact that I was and still am a shitty daughter, I'm the eldest child but I'm usually forgotten, my parents usually forget about me because my brother was just a huge pain in the ass and my sister was another problem child.

Addictionism

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I stopped asking my parents for stuff when I was like seven years old because I understood from an early age that I would probably get most of the new stuff since I was the eldest, I never complained most of the time unless if I thought it was a bit unreasonable by my standards. I stopped showing affection to my family when I was five and a half years old, around the time my confidence and self esteem shattered and around the time I got my inferiority complex.
          	  
          	  I'm Asian and my mom and dad would hit me as a form of punishment but they only hit me when I crossed the line. As you guys know my dad just died and as I said I was a terrible daughter I said a lot of mean things to my dad and my mom that I never apologized for because I was too prideful for it. despite being in a family of five I was usually home alone so I didn't really don't give a fuck about what my parents thought of me and I was fourteen to sixteen years old. I'm still sixteen though and I regret a lot of what I said and did in the past. My anxiety, depression,stress and my mild anger issues that I'm starting to control aren't excuses for what I did. I know I'll never be able to be a good daughter but from now on I'll try to be at least a decent one. I want to make my parents proud, sometimes I just want to follow my dad but I know for a fact that a parent having to bury their own child is the worst torture a parent can go through so I won't do that to my mom whom my dad loves. My dad was strict but he was very affectionate. My dad's friends said that despite the fact that my dad scolded me a lot, and sometimes hit me my dad always said that he was proud of me and that he loved me very much. My dad wanted me to pursue my dreams so I'll do my best from now on. Anyways thank you whoever you guys are for reading my rant I might update a few chapters this week since I got a lot of ideas that I can put. Thank you and have a great day
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Addictionism

So like I might update early maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. I just want to get my mind off of things and just channel my emotions and energy into my writing. I just need an outlet right now. I know for a fact that I was and still am a shitty daughter, I'm the eldest child but I'm usually forgotten, my parents usually forget about me because my brother was just a huge pain in the ass and my sister was another problem child.

Addictionism

this message may be offensive 
I stopped asking my parents for stuff when I was like seven years old because I understood from an early age that I would probably get most of the new stuff since I was the eldest, I never complained most of the time unless if I thought it was a bit unreasonable by my standards. I stopped showing affection to my family when I was five and a half years old, around the time my confidence and self esteem shattered and around the time I got my inferiority complex.
            
            I'm Asian and my mom and dad would hit me as a form of punishment but they only hit me when I crossed the line. As you guys know my dad just died and as I said I was a terrible daughter I said a lot of mean things to my dad and my mom that I never apologized for because I was too prideful for it. despite being in a family of five I was usually home alone so I didn't really don't give a fuck about what my parents thought of me and I was fourteen to sixteen years old. I'm still sixteen though and I regret a lot of what I said and did in the past. My anxiety, depression,stress and my mild anger issues that I'm starting to control aren't excuses for what I did. I know I'll never be able to be a good daughter but from now on I'll try to be at least a decent one. I want to make my parents proud, sometimes I just want to follow my dad but I know for a fact that a parent having to bury their own child is the worst torture a parent can go through so I won't do that to my mom whom my dad loves. My dad was strict but he was very affectionate. My dad's friends said that despite the fact that my dad scolded me a lot, and sometimes hit me my dad always said that he was proud of me and that he loved me very much. My dad wanted me to pursue my dreams so I'll do my best from now on. Anyways thank you whoever you guys are for reading my rant I might update a few chapters this week since I got a lot of ideas that I can put. Thank you and have a great day
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Addictionism

So umm Hi to everyone who reads I AM A GOOD BOY, (I don't really know how this announcement thing works but meh) so I'm sorry if I haven't updated for a while, its just because I don't have any ideas for the story yet and I'm also lacking stray kids content hence why I don't have any ideas.