Alone... And yet thriving to change whatever my life has gotten to....

I am mentally challenged everyday, so that I can still live my normal life but... without knowing so I was stripping away from the goal, from the life I happily lived , emotionally desinterested, always frustrated at myself because I FELT THAT WHEN I DO SOMETHING I DO IT THE WRONG WAY AND I CANT STOP IT I CANT STOP BEING WHO I AM I LIED, I CRIED... I TOLD MYSELF IT WOULD BE BETTER WELL IT DIDNT GET BETTER, I DID NOTHING... and so... I have nothing... and no one... to console me... but it's okay I have myself to tell me about WHAT I DO WRONG... and to remind me everyday of all the mistakes, all the sorrows, all the truths and lies... so that no one can hear me cry anymore. Of course, it's not like I don't want you to be happy but I wished you wouldn't be.

And yet, I still sympathize you because I love you, my friend. Forgive me so that I never have to look at you, forgive me so that I don't pray to talk with you again and forgive me for all those years of silence that I allowed to happen because of my mistakes. Be a good person, and strive so that we meet again, not as ourselves but as others. Goodbye.