Should i'm going back into writing?
To be honest, i thought i've died already. Guess i'm still here, so i believe God doesn't want me to visit the nether realm anytime soon. (I'm positive my soul is belong to the hell.)
Illness is a terrible thing that could happen to anyone. I've learned my lesson.
For a second, i was happy. Even though i'm going to die (at that time) at least i'll meet her there. :)
I miss her a lot. Even after years, i'm still a hopeless man. Still trapped in the past without any sign to recover from the truth. It's hurt. Still hurt.
I don't know. If i'm trying to become a full time writer after this, probably i'll quit my job. Move to a quite place. Be friend with solitaire and nature.
Maybe become a farmer. Move to my grandfather's farm. Taking care of his crops, chickens and things. I don't know. I haven't married yet and i don't have a feeling to mary someone. My heart has died, just like my dreams with her.
If only i could turn back time.
The only thing i wanna do is,
Spend more time with her. :)
