AgainintheShadows

I'm olddd

AgainintheShadows

You made me a liar, and now you ask for favours?
          I haven't cursed at you, so don't think I'm being difficult, disrespectful, and ingrate of a niece if all I have done starting from here is wanting to have nothing to do with you all. 
          
          I'm not much, but I'm definitely not also for your convenience.

AgainintheShadows

In times like this, I ask him. Why would he take away from an adoptive child her adoptive mother. Why would he take away her home? In that sensitive age? To that sensitive circumstances?
          
          Why does he need to cause pain to an innocent soul?
          What things does he want to teach that he needs to take away a life?
          
          I don't have a strong faith that's why I'm quick to blame.
          Yet how about those who prayed? Hasn't it reached you enough? 
          What praises and pleads do you want more?

AgainintheShadows

And it happened. I have weighed feelings in the moment of outburst. Someone said that in order to tell the truth we risk to offend someone. And I did to my dear aunt. It was out of anger but more of frustration and sadness. Frustration because she wasn't the same aunt of what I have in my memories. Sadness because I have to yell, and knowing she doesn't have anyone to console her. 
          
          I realized again ang again why I wanted to leave this place. It's not because I don't care for everyone. Its because I can't bear seeing them fighting again and again. If we were just a little bit fortunate, even just a tad.  Maybe we could afford peace. Or maybe we could separate ways. 
          
          I know I've grown myself not representable. I know I say some things. But I don't wanna say its because that's my blood, that that's how we are. Unruly, undignified, and clowns of the community.
          
          Still waters...