아욱웃

I didn't mean to leave my account dead for such a long time, especially without a hiatus warning.
          Well, I didn't really warn about a hiatus because I didn't see one coming.
          
          I had been going through a super hard and really wild time of my life for a minute there, so it was hard to find the headspace to write.
          
          All my life I only ever wrote and made art whenever I had inspiration and motivation. I never wrote for other people, I've always written for myself because I like it.
          
          These past few months it's been hard to find inspiration or motivation in anything, and hard to enjoy things like I used to. Also it seemed that whenever I found inspiration, motivation was still the hardest thing to get.
          
          I've been overworked, put down by friends and family, and both mentally and physically unhealthy for several months. It felt like a never ending cycle, a hole I couldn't be pulled out of.
          
          I've had to come to the conclusion that nobody could help me, as much as I needed it. I had to snap out of it, let go of some things, and pull myself out of the hole. No matter how hard it was, and no matter how much every bone in my body fought against me.
          
          I'm still not 100%, but I'm starting to feel a lot better. I'm finding joy in things that I used to love again, and I'm finding new things to enjoy as well.
          
          For a little bit I was writing some on Tumblr, but I have a whole lot more unfinished drafts than I do actual posted works.
          I still might end up posting on Tumblr more than on here, but I've still got the urge to finish my unfished stories on this account.
          
          My posting will be slow, but I'm not leaving yet.
          I've really missed my few mutuals on here, and I missed my stories and other people's stories.
          I just missed Wattpad in general, oddly enough lol.
          
          Thank you all who have still continued to follow me, despite being inactive for so long. (*´∀`*)

Of course the next wish banner is Childe, and I don't even want him. ಥ⌣ಥ
          I guess this is a good opportunity to save all of my primos for the banner after that cuz that's the banner I'm really looking forward to.
          It's a Hu Tao rerun AND it'll have Thoma, I'm foaming at the mouth thinking about it!!! (┳Д┳)
          It's all the way in November tho. ╥﹏╥

Still watching Alice in Borderland.
          They really didn't have to do that to me in the 3rd episode...lowkey makes me already wanna stop watching the show, but I know I'd regret it if I quit when there's only 8 episodes in total.

I just started Alice in Borderland. I'm halfway through episode 1, and I already feel like Karube is gonna die.
          They're too good of friends it's too happy, he's probably not gonna make it. I know its gonna be him, cuz he already alluded to it when he said that he wouldn't be the one to survive a zombie apocalypse, but Arisu would.
          And imma sob when it happens too, cuz I'm already absolutely in love with him. (┳Д┳)

Are you gonna continue the croptop story??? I'm in suspense... esp. about Y/N's relationship with hos brother 

BAD LOVE WAS WAY TOO GOOD OMFG-
          I think ever since Kai's solo debut, SM is really feeding into my love of space cowboys.
          That aesthetic will never get old for me, in fact there isn't enough of it anywhere.
          
          I'm over here ranting about space cowboys, but the actual song was so freaking good wtf.
          Maybe it's just me, but there hasn't been very many Key solo comebacks in a while that hit as hard as Bad Love.

The ending of Squid Game got me screaming.
          All of my favorite characters are dead, Gihun should have taken Cheol in as his own son instead of giving him to Sangwoo's mom, and the reveal of who was behind the Squid Games made me wanna throw my remote at the TV. ＼（〇_ｏ）／
          
          I dig the red hair tho.

Episode 6 of Squid Game got me crying way too much for characters I've only known for a few episodes. ಥ⌣ಥ

Damn, I just started watching Squid Game and I'll barely have any time to finish it probably because of work. ಥ⌣ಥ
          
          I finished episode 1 today before I had to start getting ready for work, and now I'm stuck in the middle of episode 2. I'm trying to watch it at work during as much free time as I can get. The episode is so long that I might never finish it until tomorrow morning. (Ｔ▽Ｔ)

Not to be that one person who thinks of zodiac signs all the time, but sometimes I just be noticing how sign stereotypes fall right into place.
          
          I love other Leos so much, but every conversation I have with abother Leo over text always goes like this:
           "hey, how are you?"
           "I'm not okay and my life is going to shit, but that's pretty normal. hbu?"
           "I feel that."
          
          Then we don't text each other for a week or two, then we come back and proceed to have the same exact conversation again. ಥ⌣ಥ
          
          Leos are horrible at texting. It makes us seem like we don't care about our friendships or relationships, but trust me, close friendships are what hold Leos together and keep us going most of the time. We care, I promise lol.