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It's getting heavier more and more. 
          Can i just go back to my world, my isolation castle? 
          Wallahi, i know i can do anything but definitely not alone in fighting for something, for a connection, for a relationship. 

Antara sebab overthink adalah bila ada meletakkan expectation pada sesuatu.
          It's okay to imagine things but it's not okay to put any expectations or hope on things.
          
          Just be ready dengan yang perlu dan penting.
          That's the key to survival.
          Set a mindset to be okay with the reality.
          If there's anything's wrong, think and settle when it's happening, not now.
          Don't think now or else it will be a burden for your mind and chest.
          
          2110
          28.11.2025
          

28 November 2025.
          0039
          "Everything about you, cannot be given once." 
          0111
          "Falling for me is okay."
          0735
          "Beautiful is cute."
          
          Morning, Missing, Waiting for wake up.
          And then, gone to dreamland hahahaha
          
          While here,
          Stationary & groceries shopping.
          A new pillow.
          

27 November 2025, 1500.
          
          Rose, Love & Diamond.
          £0¢ till the End biiznillah inshaAllah.
          Spent hours in choosing the one for me — tenang yang sama setiap kali buat keputusan. 
          And now i see, even simple thing pun ada hikmah bila buat dengan ketenangan. 
          Why do you need to keep it when you can use it in your daily life? 
          Rusted? Just purchase a new one. 
          Don't worry. Just use it.
          

27 November 2025, 1500.
          
          
          £o¢ till the End inshaAllah biiznillah.
          Spent hours in choosing the one for me — tenang yang sama setiap kali buat keputusan. 
          And now i see, even simple thing pun ada hikmah bila buat dengan ketenangan. 
          Why do you need to keep it when you can use it in your daily life? 
          Rusted? Just purchase a new one. 
          Don't worry. Just use it.
          

26 November 2025, 1700
          
          "Cara terbaik mencintai seseorang adalah dengan tidak mencintainya." 
          
          Thank you. 
          Reflection again and again. 
          Never stop learning.
          Toxic relationship vs Healthy relationship. 
          Fake love vs Real love.
          Obsession vs Love. 

26 Nov 2025, now
          
          Gave them time and space.
          They discussed.
          They talked.
          Yet, I know nothing.
          For now maybe.
          Yeah, perhaps for now.
          I don't wanna overthink anymore.
          Let them be.
          If it's meant to be for me, it will be.
          I'm tired to ask, to think, to know things I shouldn't know.
          So, let them be.
          

25 Nov 2025, evening.
          
          Why do you need to worry about acceptance of 2 people when you can decide which one to choose?
          
          "I chose only 1 already."
          
          If you've made your choice, you know what you need to do, what you must do.
          
          Tiada apa yang perlu difikirkan, dipeningkan, dirisaukan bila dah buat pilihan.
          Sebab sebelum buat pilihan tu kita dah fikir dah pening dah risau.
          
          Sometimes, i just don't get it.

25 Nov 2025, midnight - 26 Nov 2025
          
          It's about sharing.
          It's about understanding.
          It's about acceptance.
          
          Tiada siapa nak berkongsi.
          Cuma, kena ingat,
          Andai terjadi, semuanya sudah tersurat.
          Dan untuk kita sentiasa mengingatkan diri,
          tiada apa di dunia ini milik kita.
          
          I do hurt a little bit by this topic,
          but i was hurting because of jealousy.
          I can't imagine melihat apa yang saya tak nak lihat.
          But somehow, takde rasa sakit hati juga.
          Sebab tahu, tiada apa milik saya di dunia ini.
          Yang dipinjamkan juga bukan akan sentiasa dipinjamkan secara keseluruhan.
          I can't imagine lihat orang lain di tempat sama macam saya,
          tapi, siapa kita atas dunia ni untuk rasa kita entitled untuk satu² tempat tu khas kita sorang je?

Such a warm day this year ")