I rarely write here.. but i just feel i need to express myself somewhere.. since B dropped the bomb to all of us BWs, my head hu been so disturbed. I kept scrolling on twitter n feed myeyes and brain on the things that i knw will hurt me. I hv never been in a fandom and this is the first time. My first celebrities crush Bright and Win. For the past 4 yrs i nvr get tired on following their activities n always adore their friendship and god knows wht were their status before. But seeing what happend, n how they grew apart, i feel so upset. Somehow i feel sad for Win that i think he just lost someone precious, close, a partner, a brother to him. I cant help but cry myself like get it all out!
I am mad and sad that i unfollowed n blocked Bright n decided to stan Win alone. Call it what u want. I dont mind if u think im not a true fan of Bright. I just cant believe that the day is finally here, where i dont like Bright anymore!
This is insane! I always think that Brightwin is my distraction from the outside world! From my problems n struggles. I wud just sit n scroll to see them everyday and i wud read au every night til i fall asleep. They gave me comfort. Now that this happened, i hope this unpleasant feeling will go away asap. I feel like i just had a terrible break up.. like i was watching a really sad movie that i keep crying everyday cuz of it. Yes i am that sensitive. I cried for a week after watching Beautiful Life, a japanese series when i was in high school. I cried for days after watching The Star is Born. Now i feel like im watching 2gether where Wat and Tine finally broke up n be with their own lovers.
To all BWs out there, our feelings are valid. we need to accept this and move on. Bright already made a statement. And he is happy with his girlfriend. I donno whether i'll be able to read BW au here anymore..
