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Guys I feel like my best friend irl is replacing me
She was having drama with some ppl and I was told abt it(the ppl are in a gc with me and my bff) two of the ppl in the gc and myself were on call(one girl and my bff) and I had to leave cuz I was helping ppl move.
I was gone for a hour or so and I read through all of their chats and everything that was sent and I'm not typing everything they said but In a summary here's what happened(PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOUR UNCOMFORTABLE WITH SUICIDE MENTIONS!) They said they were all crying and that someone called another person a bitch and were talking bad behind their back, and then they started saying stuff about committing.(For example "if I do commit ill say I love you guys first" "I'll be in the sky if I commit" or simply "I'm going to commit" etc). I got back and read through every single message. The only time my best friend remembered me is when I said something. (She literally said nothing like "Love yall. Including *insert my name*" or anything. And she knows I've thought abt ending it) I know damn well that she despises everyone at her school.(she in hs) So I was confused. Obviously I didn't say anything, but I was crying a bit. I literally feel left out, and me and her have been friends since elementary. I feel like I'm losing her. But I also feel like I'm overreacting and being controlling and shit. It's like how you see your favorite person have a amazing time with somebody else than you do with them. Like your happy for them but it also hurts deep down yk? Then they started making rules like no keeping secrets from each other. I do have secrets from my childhood that I won't share with them though, and I'm just imagining how pissed they would be if they found out.(I am not comfortable sharing what happened. Please understand that)
If I am overreacting please tell me.