Leán

Currently really sad , wanna get lost in my own thoughts for a few hours , but even my mind disagrees with rest , here’s to more restless nights , tiring days and low-spirited afternoons.

It is commonly believed that getting up and going , head held high your eyes no linger blotchy , is how we define strength or bravery. But the truth , is part of that bravery is when were alone crying , a ball of mess of tear stains and sweat , confused , most times , or when we can look in the mirror , birds-nest of hair and eyes swollen from tears or sleep and smile. Cause sometimes the hardest part of bravery is saying you’ll be okay , but sometimes its saying your hurt and its okay to cry , and being alone and still so decidedly open to yourself , the truth ? the hardest person to lie to is yourself. 

So it’s my fault again , huh ? Since everything I see to do , is wrong , everything i seem to be is wrong , why does it matter then , whats the point .
          
          Let’s clear it up then , I’m wrong , I’m not supposed to do anything right , incapable of meaning to do it . 
          
          Then thats done , why do I need to try then ? Cause I’m really tired of this , I really am.
          
          And you don’t care , no one really has , so why do I ? 

You don’t become a hero by making someone else a villain . The same way doesn’t just exist, its inflicted . 
          
          You can’t claim heroism , by imposing antagonism. 
          
          You can’t change and fix something by passing on the blame.
          
          The same way we don’t live , because someone else isn’t. 

Sometimes we completely forget , that even how crazy we see and feel our lives are, that we have people in our lives who are “partly sane” but keep us in check. The friends who make us better people, who can drive us crazy and keep us happy. And the people who prove over and over again , that we are loved . 
          
          And I just wanna say that , to all my friends , I’m beyond blessed that I have these people in my life . And that thank you for always reminding me , that in this crazy world , I still have crazier friends ( JK. slightly ) But honestly I keep forgetting to appreciate everyone , because sometimes you never realize how much you make a difference in a persons life (mine) and I love you all.
          
          

Hi! Thank you so much for following me! Lots of love ❤

I just realized, that I have no idea what is what anymore
          
          I used to think that we all are living
          
          but we all are just existing, everything is , all things we find normal exciting and all things we love, like those childhood games you used to play, the park you used to go to , the movie that made you fall in love , wont be a “thing” in the next year , next decade, next 20 years.
          
          And its that we think that all are actions are just us “living our best life” what we dont  realize is that we cause consequences , that we disregard, because it life afterall.
          
          It all just seems really sad to see and end of things that made you happy , and to think that it wont always be what makes you happy .
          
          It’s crazy how fast everything will go by, and that by a blink of an eye , all we know is, all we find familiar, would be a part of a memory so far behind , that the nostalgia of remembering it would make your heart clench and your eyes water . 
          
          
          Just a thought.....

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i love that ur new book was inspired by me
          thank you, i guess.
          :))

hullo are u still alive? jkjkjkjk