@Alex25018 sorry to hear that. I guess I can't comfort you with my presence but if my words give you comfort, so be it.
Breathe and this will pass. It will take time. Of course. Everything takes time. Seasons will change. Like People around you. Your choices will change. Your attitude will change. I guess you will be less bitter or less sweeter as the time will pass.
I know you will grow more. As the day will pass. This shall pass too.