💚⛧Lara⸸🖤

(pt2) 
          
          And last, but not least, Thank you claire,...i dont think were friends anymore bc u blocked me and i dont think that ull see this...but...Thank u...Thank u for giving me all the chances youve givin me...thank u for being there for me when i was being a piece of fucking shit....look, ik ive treated u wrong...and there is no fucking excuse for the shit ive done...i treated u like shit bc i was fucking hurt over ppl that didnt care for me like u did...honestly..if i could go back in time...i would treat u 10000000x better!! u didnt deserve the shit i did to u..i was just...depressed asf...after me and hanna broke up, i started to get bitchy...but...you did nothing wrong..and if we had a chance to talk...js one more time...i would say im sorry..i would tell u i treated u wrong and made it seem like...it was ur fault..when...it fucking wasnt!! it was me!! and i see that now... if we could talk one more time...id want us to start over...and ill be SUCH a better friend then i was back then! and u might not belive me but i will prove it to u! i hope this reaches u...thank u...and i love u..
          
          
          thank u everyone i didnt mention in this...thank u!! uve all givin me sm love and support! that i honestly dont deserve! i used to be a bad perso bc of things at home and ive done a lot of ppl wrong..but ive changed...one of those changes are gonna be my presence on wattpad...i no longer want to be on this app..since i get remined of all the horrible shit ive done....and all the ppl ive done wrong...i was young and dumb...and i need to grow up..im almost 15 and i need to mature...
          
          if u all will like to ttm i will be active on instagram my username is Lovely_.LittleLara_
          
          wattpad was an amazing expriance..... and thank  u to everyone who made it all worth wild....
          
          i love u all...
          
          goodbye... 
          
          and good night...

(pt1)
          
          yeah, im leaving now
          
          so heres my goodbye note: 
          
          Hi, Im Lara/Alex 
          i have been on wattpad since i was 10/11. that was almost 5/4 years ago! and i js wanna say....thank you :) 
          
          thank you, @ARandomPerSon293838, for being my first friend on this app! when we first met i was a fucking asshole, But im happy we continued to be friends even after that!! you're one of my best friends and even tho we don't talk much anymore(bc i nvr know what to talk abt) i hope we ca be friends for a while longer! i love you and that will nvr change!! 
          
          thank you, @GR0DZz, for being my second friend on this app, tho we arent friends anymore, im honestly happy we met! Im happy you were my first ever girlfriend, im happy you were there to comfort me when i was going thru shit. ik i was a terrible partner, i was young and wasnt used to having a Partner, and ik that i was nvr able to tty (bc of my dad) but i wnt u to know that even tho we arent friends, i still love you and im happy to have ever called u a friend. 
          
          thank u,  @KUQIPHOBIA, you were also an amazing friend, and ik we didnt rlly talk, but i still appreciate u!! its a little awkward that im randomly talking to u, but i nvr got the chance to say a proper goodbye so here it is, thank u for being my friend, thank u for giving me the courage to ask out hanna when i was a little pussy...thank u for being there for me when things were hard...i love u!
          
          Thank u, @Midnightrosekitty, for being my friend! thank u for Also being there for me!! and thank u for not leaving me and forgetting abt me! im happy to still call u a friend! i love u! and i have such great memories with u!! im happy we still talk! i cant even put into words how much love i feel for u!! thank u!! thank u!! THANK U!!! THANK U FOR BEING MY FRIEND AND THANK U FOR EVERYTHING U DO!!! UR SUCH A SWEET AND AMAZING PERSON! I LOVE U AND THAK UU!!

actually i might js leave now

after these two stories are over im leaving wattpad

i only have 2 friends from here 
          
          thats crazy lmao

i havent read these fanfics that i REALLY WANNA READ but i cant bc im on a computer rn and i like to read on phoneeee

i js seen this thing and it really made me mad.
          
          people.
          
          MEN.
          CAN.
          BE.
          ABUSED.
          TOO.
          
          MEN.
          CAN.
          BE.
          gRAPED. 
          TOO. 
          
          MEN.
          CAN.
          BE.
          SA'D .
          TOO.
          
          MEN.
          HAVE.
          FEELINGS.
          
          IM TIRED OF PEOPLE THINKING THAT SHIT DOESNT ALSO HAPPEN TO THEM. BC IT DOES. MEN HAVE FEELINGS AND THEY NEED TO BE FUCKING HEARD.
          
          WOMEN AND MEN ARE EQUAL. 
          
          IM TIRED OFF PPL THINKING THAT "oh shes a woman shes weaker then you so you couldnt have been abused or  you couldnt have been sa'd" 
          
          ITS DUMB 
          BC IT HAPPENS 
          
          AND THATS ALSO CENTERED  AROUND THINKING WOMAN ARE WEEK ITS ANNOYING.
          
          WOMAN AND MEN CAN BE ABUSED.
          WOMAN AND MEN CAN BE gRAPED.
          WOMAN AND MEN CAN BE SA'D
          WOMAN AND MEN CAN BE MENTALLY ILL.
          WOMAN AND MEN CAN BE SUICIDAL. 
          
          PERIOD. POINT. AND BLANK.

Please don't take this out on me
          'Cause you're the only thing that's keeping me alive
          And I don't wanna wait for the down set date
          'Cause I would rather end it all tonight
          If I mean anything to you
          I'm sorry but I made up my mind
          
                                                      -Bulls In The Bronx 
                                                                                         P.T.V.

not me crying while listening to System Of A Down and Pierce The Veil

This isn't fair (no)
          Don't you try to blame this on me
          My love for you was bulletproof
          But you're the one who shot me
          
                                                        -Bulletproof love 
                                                                                     P.T.V.