Alex/Xeila

Guys, I'm turning 16 on Thursday. Shaking in my boots. I personally think 16 is too grown of an age. It's like the official marking of, "you gotta grow up and be a responsible adult." Even though you still have a few years left to figure your shit out! It's the beginning of a life that's too serious for comfort. Anyway! Hi! Or bye! What do we think of Dream releasing more music soon? I haven't been following along with much of the events and such things with the dteam lately, but I'm lowkey so excited! 

A gentle breeze engulfes me, 
          Wraps its arms around me tightly. 
          
          The river water swallows me,
          Whispers in my ear assuringly.
          
          A fish stares at me,
          Wondering what is wrong with me judgementally.
          
          The rocks lift around me,
          Whelving me like a blanket comfortably.
          
          A swarm of bubbles burble around me,
          Worshiping me and singing to me positively.
          
          The feeling of peace, of comfort, overcomes me,
          Waking me from the darkness that once consumed me manically.
          

The river water flowed in a race of quiet laps, a silent trickle as it smoothed itself over and down 
          the dark brown rocks. A lovely, luke-warm liquid that eased and chilled skin to the touch. Calmed it of the humid hot air that surrounded, caused sweat to drip down and stick to every inch of us. A pleasant, friendly accomplice to my hunt for gorgeous rocks. Tip-toeing around my feet as I invaded its lovely waters and stole the treasure it kept hidden within it. Not minding much, sensing the peace it brought to me, the quiet I so desperately needed and wanted for once. 
          
          The rocks glimmered, just as the water did as the sun reflected, a mirror-like substance, along 
          with these precious, unique objects that nature created. I stand corrected; some appeared dull. A velvety cover erupted in front of my eyes, from the moss that comforted, hugged it like a soft, green, blanket. My hand meets one of Earth's many creations, a shiny, milky white and pink marbled quartz. A soft layer of green moss covering the side of its smooth surface. My thumb wipes its presence off, dipping the beauty back under the clear river water to wash it off. 

Guys, it's low-key been a crazy ass year. I don't think I can write for y'all anymore! :( 
          
          So basically, I have BPD and I'm low-key a crazy son of a bitch, and to be honest, I think I'm just growing out of writing fan-fiction at the moment.
          
          Maybe someday I'll come back and finish my books, but right now I'm trying to work on my triggers and I'm trying to be more...sane...you know? Also, I'm trying to graduate high-school a year early, and I'm bombarded with school work. I just don't have time anymore. 
          
          I wouldn't say I'm quitting, but I guess it's like that of the sort. Still here! Just got shit to do 24/7, you know! But I hope someday I come back and have the motivation again! I love you all!
          
          If anyone has questions, feel free to ask, I'm not disappearing off the face of the Earth, yet, at least. LOLZ.

Um, this is weird. So, yeah, obviously, I didn't write shit like I said I would in April. Writers block, lol! Hi! How are we? LMFAO
          I'm not predicting when I'll write. You'll know when I happen to open wattpad and type away on one of my stories when a chapter gets released. Sorry, guys!

Ya'll, I'm alive! I forgot about this. Whoops! I probably won't write for a bit. School ends in a month, so I gotta keep my grades up and get things done! Could or could not be free by June, depending on if I get my summer job or not, but in July, I'll try to get some chapters out, alright? Love ya'll! 

GUYS??? WOAH?? DNF ONESHOTS JUST HIT 16K READS. 
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          This is just so funny to me. If you asked 12 year old me if she would make it anywhere past 1,000 reads. If she would genuinely improve on writing and have so many plans for writing in the future... she would not have believed anyone, not even her now. ME! 
          
          I started writing on November 4th, 2022. Past the 2 year mark, and I'm on my third year. Surprisingly enough, I've never thought about quitting. I could never picture myself stopping, and the thought of not writing just... never sat right with me? 
          And I'm not even good at writing, I'm just doing the bare minimum. My schedule is nonexistent, and I just write and put out whatever, whenever. Which probably isn't typical for a wanna-be author, but y'know.
          
          Now, I need to rewrite and edit the whole book SUPER BAD! However, that takes so long, and sometimes it takes longer to edit than to just rewrite the whole god damn thing! Lol! So, I've been putting it off, and ya'll seem to like the cringyness of my old writing anyway... since it's still being read? Somehow? Totally not judging. 

"Why Are You So Confusing?" Just hit 100 reads! Two years, and a random burst of motivation in 2025 later, gosh. I seriously never thought it'd get to 100 reads, and it's a pretty lame goal, but I have very low standards (I've come to notice). Maybe I need to up my game.

Chapter Nine of "Why Are You So Confusing?" Is OUT NOW! Took me a few days longer than I anticipated. Some scenes are difficult for me to write for whatever reasons, and my brain can't process and think of words I want to use right as I'm trying to type them out. BUT, THAT DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE. GO READ, IF YOU WANNA! 

Weew! Chapter 8 of "Why Are You So Confusing?" Is out! Yay! I'm going to bed, I'm gonna pass out. 
          This book litteraly is so confusing. It's sweet and amazing for one moment, then the next moment; you have the most random, annoying, and irritating scene happening. Soooo confusing. Almost like it's in the name...hmm...I could only wonder. 
          Okay, bye, love you guys! xxx
          Goodnight.