AlexWinrySmith

I finally got the stuff for my ukulele!! Woohoo!!! I might post it with the drawings, a crappy video of me playing, now that it's here.

AlexWinrySmith

I'm a little tired of it all. Not in the suicidal or current pandemic crisis tired but just tired. Maybe I bit off more than I could chew and have to face the full ramifications of reckless altruism. Maybe I'm behind on a lot but it wasn't my own doing. Maybe I'm stressed out and the crisis is only making it worse. Maybe it's past 3 am and I should have been asleep hours ago. Maybe I am a mess need to fix it. Maybe I just don't have any amswers as to how. Maybe I love the word maybe and it's uncertainty it exudes. Maybe I just like it. Maybe maybe maybe.

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I'm so proud of Daniel Howell for the video he posted earlier today! I know that it takes a lot of courage to do what he did and I'm glad that he felt comfortable enough with his fanbase to share it despite what might happen because of it. He's a true inspiration.

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Thank you for the follow!

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As my own way of celebrating Pride Month, I feel that I can at least come out somewhere by saying that I identify myself as a non-binary, aromantic ace and is proud of being one. If I couldn't be a non-binary ace then I'll gladly be a trans pansexual who'll go by ambiguous pronouns or just my my name.

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Tomorrow I start a new phase of my life and as I'm expected to be ecstatic and overjoyed, I can't help but feel sadness and regret for making it this far in my life. I keep asking myself, "is this what I want? Will this be the start of freedom? Why am I not happy? Why can't I seem to feel happy? What does it truly mean to be free?" I'm getting tired of feigning joy and elation but I don't want to sorry others. Maybe there's just something wrong with me and who I am. There has to be because why would I feel the way that I do, especially with what's happening tomorrow, and still feel completely horrid.