Alex

I fucking hate myself. I sent my friend into a panic and I feel awful. They keep saying it's their fault but it isn't! It's my damn fault. It's all on me. I feel like a shitty friend... I don't want to send people into panics, I never do! But I always do in the long run... I feel so bad...
          
          
          Why can't I be better? Why can't I comfort people? WHY CANT I DO BETTER?

I'm fucking panicking. A friend is probably going to commit and Idk what to do. I don't want to say anything that may hurt them...
          
          I just... don't want to lose them. How am I suppose to say something comforting when I don't even know them irl.

Yes, Alex is very cool 

Why do I feel like restarting on my book and making it into something I make up? Should I? 
          
          Like, it's not about any fandoms, just my characters in their own world. 

Should I write smut to help with my damming thoughts??