Hello…
I know you said goodbye to me a long time ago.
I am a slow soul; I struggle to adjust, because even time needs time. I know what you might be thinking—but you’re wrong. I’m not sad. I’m not broken. In truth, I’m happy for you, and proud.
I don’t blame you.
If I could step outside my own story, if I weren’t me, I would have chosen the same. I would have chosen someone brighter, someone easier to love—someone who doesn’t carry so many storms. I fight my demons, yet I cannot live without them; I cannot let them go. I need them. My efforts to stay awake are no longer enough. I’ve surrendered, and I’ll carry them as part of my life.
I come from a dark place, crowded with wounds and unfinished battles. And I know the world around you never wanted me by your side. Even now, even changed, I still feel like I am not enough for anyone.
And I want you to know this: I understand you.
I truly do.
Even though, at first, it hurt so much it felt as if my heart fell to the ground and a thousand footsteps crushed it. That is life—moving without asking. I couldn’t decide for both of us. And as much as I wish everything had been different, I know you’re happy, and somehow… that is enough.
I will find another way.
I’m not sad anymore.
Be happy. Take care of your world—of yourself, of your health. I will always be here if you ever need me, if I can ever help. And even if it doesn’t seem like it, I am deeply grateful for everything you taught me, for the love you allowed me to feel.
Maybe you never knew it, but you made me happy—
and happiness is a rare thing for me.
So thank you for that.
Take care.
Take very good care of yourself. ✨