Dear Marceline
As days pass, I lose my beliefs and hopes. I'm exhausted. I don't want to look into the future with hope. It is hard to believe that beautiful and sunny times are waiting for us. I don't want to believe anymore. Every time I believe, I'm so tired of being sad and hurt. At that moment I asked you to call me and talk to me. Call me at that moment, it was very difficult to say I should speak to you, so I asked you to understand me.
Sorry to be a tough friend. i love you very much but i'm very afraid to upset you. please stay with me.