I know this is really random, but I needed this off my chest.
This has been bothering me for a while. Do you ever feel like your not good enough or out of the loop? Or even forgotten? I feel like that all the time, even with my friends it's like I don't even exist. They all get together and forget about me. It's hurts. But I guess that's how it is the ones I hold closer will always leave me. I always feel like one of my friends just talk about me. How Annoying I am or How clingy I am. I just wonder when I'm going to find someone, who will stay by me. I guess that's what I get for me keeping my head in my ass. But why do the people who I care most leave me? I have a constant fear of being alone. No one to vent, laugh, cry, smile with. When the one friend you've had since 4th grade doesn't trust you and constantly lies to my face. Why am I such a idiot? Why can't I be like, "they don't like you Allison," and just leave them alone? Why must my heart deal with so much heart break?