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With the recent information that has come out about Cryaotic I would like to say a few things. First: to the victims, my heart is with you, and I stand with you. Please know that countless other people do too. I am so sorry for ever giving him a platform. I am ashamed to say that I ever looked up to him. It makes me sick. 
          Second: it really fucks me up to think it could've been me. This is coming from a now 18 year old, who loved Cryaotic in middle school and early high school. I was a child when I watched him, along with many others. He used that power he had over people, especially children - the respect, the admiration, loyalty and love - to take advantage and groom minors. You never realize truly how much something, or someone, has power over you until later introspection. I have considered a few times coming back and finishing the main fanfiction on this account (never have because it feel embarassing and weird now to write about real, breathing people) and I am now glad I never did. I haven't watched Cryaotic in a long time now and will never be watching him again. I am not sure if I will be privating my stories, but it's more than likely. This news coming to light is something I will be thinking about and reflecting on for a very long time. 
          I doubt anyone will see this - but if someone who needs to this perhaps does, it's worth saying. Be careful idolizing people online, especially when you're underage. You don't know them. You don't know their intentions. It's hard when you're young, to not seek those mentors wherever you find them. Please be safe with where you put your love, loyalty, and attention. Guard your heart. 
          I don't blame younger me for liking him. I couldn't have known. But it will haunt me for a long time. 

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Hi! I haven't posted an update for this account in quite some time.
          
          My new account is @trainerblueoak , and I do not as of now write on this account. The only story that I will ever consider finishing is In The Stars, as that book is something that was dear to me as a kid. It's nearly done and it would make a friend of mine really happy. I still love that story. It's rambly and imperfect and far too long - but I remember being in 7th grade, splayed across my living floor and listening to music while I wrote. I love that story, as dumb as that may be. 
          
          What I have transitioned into writing now is the ships:
          -Red/Blue
          -Tom/Tord
          -A few others 
          And I will have content out for those ships, and others, in the future. If you want to support my (scarce) new content, then feel free, or even hit me up on @trainerblueoak !! 
          
          I'm not deleting anything, but nothing is promised update wise. I am growing, and I grew out of what I loved to write on this account. I have made friends through this, and lost some too. 
          
          Thank you for reading if you got this far. 
          
          Signing off, 
          
          Rae

What ever happened to Lights On Lights Off?

I just saw your "in the stars" fic skyrocket to the top of my recently updated did you edit a chapter? Bc I got so happy I love your story.

Howdy! 

Why did you delete Lights On, Lights Off?

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