Soo….I lied.
The second my older brother called me, sounding weaker and more tearful than I’ve ever heard him before, I broke.
I tried to remain calm and steady on the phone because he was closer to my grandma than ever, he lived with her, took care of her and she took care of him.
But the moment we said our goodbye’s and I love you’s, I broke.
I think I almost passed out due to the fact that it was so hard to breathe. Yes, i knew this day was coming, but I hate it. It hurts.
So I am gonna drown myself in Youtube and fanfic world for a while.