𝓣𝓪𝓵𝓮𝔂𝓲𝓪𝓱

I think he should be proud of me. I mean, I'm committing- which is better than lazily dropping. Not only that, but I'm learning my limits. And yeah, it SUCKS but he never told me to make it good- just to make it.

Imagine having a May birthday AND turning 19. Fucking oldie

“You push it down. You ignore it like it’s a plant that’ll shrivel away. But you’re the thing that’s shrinking. And one day you learn: it’s not that you’re not like other girls. It’s just that you’ve never met a girl like you. And then, you do. You meet her. And suddenly the songs make sense.”

“Guys don’t change. Girls just tells ourselves they will if they love us. But what actually happens is that the girl changes, so that they’ll keep loving us.”

Mixed signals final boss 

This is such mixed signals I hate it

"You should go" 
          "Why?" 
          "Because I want you too" 
          "Why"
          "Because I wanna see you"

“Oh I probably have makeup on my cheek now” 
          
          “You’re wearing makeup?” 
          
          “No”. 
          
          “Well I’m not” and I’m flattered she thinks my skin is that pretty but she obviously can’t see 

Does she like me? I feel stupid for wanting to ask that. When we talk she acts like she likes me- when we call not so much, when I send her videos… not so much. 
          
          Then I feel stupid for wanting her approval so bad- but I do, oh I really want her approval and it’s so stupid. She’s so pretty and smart and nice and I’ve wanted to be her friend since we met. 
          
          I don’t really know how to. Could I learn? I’m not sure 

"Honesty is good" but it's not. People always say that but what they mean is honesty is good as long as it works in their favor. The ugly truth isn't bad as long as it's not too ugly. People like Honesty when it comes in moderation: the type of honesty you have to twist and pull and shut away because it's that ugly- they don't like that one. Liking honesty honestly has to be a lie. And truthfully the truth doesn't set you free.