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Top three reasons why anyone who silently stalks me should read my friend’s story:
          
          (1) it’s a really good 
          (2) you know you love me 
          (3) I will throw hands if you don’t 
          
          Have fun :) 
          Xoxo, 
          - T
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/1637556471?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_reading&wp_page=reading&wp_uname=Alwayzsleep_y

Having this feels weird- I mean yeah, I’ve reached maximum level in stalkcology but it’s been months- and if it was that easy to find then why didn’t I find it?

Fuck I miss her. It’s 2am and I just miss her. The worst part is it’s not even targeted towards one “her” it’s just ughhh this is punishment for my behavior recently. Everything is punishment. Why won’t she just go away? Why can I not stop thinking about you? They say people think about another person when that person is thinking about them so now all I’m imagining is us circling around in each others minds because if she’s thinking about me then I’m thinking about her and vice versa and fuck someone MAKE ME GO TO SLEEP. 

This has to be some twisted addiction.

I shouldn’t be this happy- but I am. Fuck I’m happy. Ugh I get so bored at night and there’s no one else to stalk and I lowkey thought bro was dead. I think I just graduated stalker school though. Like I have a PhD now 
          

It’s like I stretching for the approval of anyone that reminds me of a father figure. 
          Because I don’t know if she loves me or hates me- and sometimes it hurts 

"But I want to do something- and I pretty much know this summer will end up like every other summer; I'll stay in my room and read, watch new shows and go to the public pool with Q- maybe even play Roblox, but as far as change goes? Well, I've pretty much fucked my summer up before it even started. 
          
          It would take a miracle for this summer to be saved: a real life God send."

"I don't have anything under my belt. I don't have sleepover stories, I've never been to a party or smoked weed... 
          
          I've never even been kissed. I've never had a girlfriend. Never just...been a teen. "
          
          - Gwen, FOL

I just wish that hadn’t come to mind; I wish it hadn’t crossed my mind. Because I get it- six year olds say stupid shit, they do stupid shit and they lie- sometimes for no reason and the only things parents can do is be mature. I don’t even know why… but it’s my fault. Maybe if I didn’t make things so hard they could’ve continued being easy. So I fucked things up for us. I did that, not him. It’s my fault. 

In honor of daddy day I’ll remind myself that I broke my family. I did that. No one else