Aaron Hill

Hey guys.....I'm so sorry I've been a ghost..some triggering stuff happened and I just absolutely plummeted. I've been writing and more or less throwing everything away because I'm stuck in this perfectionist mindset. This feeling that it's not good enough that I'm not good enough. And I'm struggling. I had also started writing songs using AI and writing lyrics and have fallen into that but I promise I'm still trying to do this.  I just....it's been rough. I've been stressed and so exhausted....I'm so sorry. Its a battle but Im fighting. I'm not giving up. And I'll post something when I can
          -Aaron

Okay so update time again:
          I'm sorry I haven't made my deadlines this week...life has gotten hectic. I've picked up shifts on two of my three days off work so far and it looks like I'll be working on the third (yay seven day work schedule!) so I haven't had the time or energy after the move to just sit and type. BUT I am still working on Embers and S.A.M and the chapters that were supposed to go up this week will be up soon for both of them. 
          I'll be honest and say that the move and having my own house is still tickling my panic nerves so I haven't been able to sit still (yay ADHD!)
          I will try harder to stay to my own schedule in the future. I understand life isn't the best excuse but life does get in the way sometimes :/

Hello, I'm really happy that you follow me. ♡♡♡
          
          Lovely Greetings,
          
          Your Mouse Goddess
          

So...life update (this one's good)
          I have been homeless for the past month and a week  and it's been a genuine struggle that's probably contributed to my needing a small break from writing this week than I'd like to admit (I'm generally someone who once they've been in a circumstance for a day or two I adapt pretty well) and thought I've well been homeless since I made my account here, for some reason these past few days it's really taken a toll on my psyche.
          Well....that looks. Very much like that's about to change. I'm legitimately holding back tears right now because I'm about to have a house. My own home. A stable freakin place that I don't have to worry about paying over 400 dollars a week to keep a roof over my head and a bed to sleep in.
          This may possibly affect my upload on Static Thursday because that is closing day on the house and I'll be in the process of moving in, getting myself outside of my moving anxiety attacks and settled in(as well as uncontrollable sobbing).
          It's a happy thing. A happy day. 
          Thank you for your patience and for reading my stories. They have been the only outlet I've had for this pain I've been carrying and I've been very nervous about sharing them. 
          ❤️
          Aaron

I fucking hate that I'm already having to write a note like this.
          I might not make my next deadline for Thea. I will make the one for Static because it's already typed up, but right now every time I open a document to type I start having panic attacks.
          Imposter syndrome is hitting hard (I wish I never won that award) and depression is setting in pretty heavy. I just realized today I've been out of my depression and anxiety meds for at least a week now (I actually can't remember the last time I took them), so for right now I'm taking a pause so I'm not destroying myself to do this. I'm too much of a perfectionist to give you trash.
          I'm taking the time I need to get my head back on straight. As it stands now, I don't think I'm making the Wednesday submit date.
          I'm sorry :/
          -Aaron