@loveuYN been better,my last figurative child just disowned himself and because I've built such a large persona of being the fool everyone needs to feel better,I got really hurt by his words
I understood why he didn't want to be my child anymore,i would never stop him,it was his choice sure,but it still hurt
Creating a whole personality based on the job of a funny friend was half my life's purpose,to be comfort,but he just technically told me "I don't need you anymore,please leave me alone" even though he knew I treasured him as a friend deeply,since if im no one to him then who am i to myself because my own pov is based on everyone else's? I was just beginning to actually heal from my 4th severe depression era too.
Other then that,I'm doing okay at least is all you need to really know,so thank you for caring!!