Let me just change up you're profile a bit, a little tweek...
"It's okay, I love me too."
We all love and support you, be proud! :)
Look up some of Dan's quotes, Phil's too. They'll cheer you up when anything gets in your way. And, it sounds weird, but looking at depressing quotes actually makes me feel calm(?) And content(?). I dunno, try it. I just want you to be happy. :D