Radioactive ' s Return

I dreamed of u last night....i know you probably think I stopped. But my heart really loves you. I dreamed that I told you how I feel how I really feel about you. I told you that I'm confused because I've never been here before. I let you know that even though my mind is telling me to try and work thru my history....  my heart yearns for your touch. It's hard to be around you at work anytime you're close my heart beats a little faster. I want you more than you know. I let you know how deeply I regret my choice..how I wish I choose to stay that day....how I know that day hurt you more than you are willing to say. I tell you I'm sorry for letting my emotions for a man that means me no good override my passion for you. I look at you everyday and I miss you deeply. I watch you in the mirror and want to touch you badly. I don't even understand myself sometimes. I let a great man like you walk into my life and I let my own insecurities and my own self doubt lose you n I hate myself for it. A lot of the times when I get quiet or u catch me watching you it's because I truly can't believe I was lucky enough to meet someone like you but then I'm dumb enough to walk out of your life. I miss the way you made me feel. I miss the way you touched me. I felt safe in your arms you were my teddy bear. I wish I chose different. I wish I stayed beside you. All I need to hear is that you are willing to forgive me and that I can come back I'd run to you. I love you king I really do I miss you. I hope you read this and message me soon