!!!Very long message incoming!!!
I have to talk about something.
A while ago, I had the impulsive idea to rewrite Lake of Visions, as it is the weakest volume so far. Then I wanted to rewrite Shadows of Truth as well — removing plot points that do not make sense, rewriting characters relationships, etc.
So I began with the planning of a new version. But again and again, I was torn. On the one hand, I wanted to give future readers a better structured, high-quality rewriting, something that does not appear to have been written without a plan and goal. Something that is actually worth reading and voting for.
At the same time, just abandoning my work of the past 3–6 years felt like I was betraying myself. This so-called work may be of the lowest quality, but it's like a baby to me, and a rewrite is like throwing this baby away because I wanted to have a better one.
And still I tried to convince myself that a rewrite would be the best choice. I did not have the motivation or the genuine desire to carry out this project. My "desire" to rewrite the books was actually the desire to please future readers. Not myself. Not my current readers.
But who knows when and if I get new readers again? What if all my efforts are in vain in the end?
Thus, I discarded the idea again. This was a hard choice, for it meant accepting that more people would read this fanfiction full of plot holes and stupid decisions of mine.
Maybe that's also a good thing. Maybe people who are unsure of their own writing skills will read my texts and realise that they don't necessarily have to be perfect before uploading something. Maybe my mediocre work makes people feel better about theirs.
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