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My stomach hurts, I think I'm gonna d*e!
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That's what happened in my first session, a second session ko, everything went smoothly. I can feel their respect and they even gave me this appreciation gift for Teacher's Day, sobrang thankful ako. As in, nakakatuwa. Madalas ko silang hindi maasikaso kasi grabe yung first session, inuubos talaga ako kaya pagdating sa kanila lagi na akong pagod at gutom, pero kahit gano'n sa kanila ko pa naramdaman yung matinding pagkilala. Ando'n yung adviser nila pero halos same nila kung tratohin kaming dalawa. Panay pa picture nila sa'kin, tawag sa'kin ng ma'am. Like ramdam mo talaga na masaya sila sa presence mo at na appreciate nila yung ginagawa mo para sa kanila
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There will always be this type of student who will bring out the beast inside you. I don't want to be mad, God knows how I always try to be patient but this student knows how to trigger my anger. Sinasagot niya ako as in, Kesyo intern lang naman daw ako, studyante lang naman ako katulad niya. Wala akong karapatan mag saway. Oh pls, grade 11 ka na bakit ganiyan ka parin umasta.
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Na trigger pa yung stomach problem ko. Nakaka stress sila I handle sa totoo lang. Gusto ko na humimlay pero hindi pwede, ito kasi yung pinasok ko e, kailangan kong panindigan. Kasama talaga 'to sa ma experience ko once naging ganap na guro na ako. Umpisa pa lang 'to, self. Kailangan mong maging matatag
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Sa mismong araw pa ng teacher's day, na dapat masaya lang at nagce-celebrate pero ang nangyari, imbes na masaya lang yung atmosphere, kinailangan ko pang magsaway dahil sa ginawa niya. Ayaw niya magpaawat, ni ayaw niyang tumigil. Tingin niya, siya yung tama at kami ang mali.
Hindi talaga madali maging guro, need talaga pahabain yung pasensya. Grabe, sumasama talaga yung loob ko. Sa kanila pa naman ako super hands on, tapos halos magpalipas na ako ng gutom para lang maasikaso sila kahit grade 11 na sila, yung approach ko sa kanila sobrang bait. Halos I spoon feed ko na pero andiyan parin yung ganiyang student na napaka bastos ng ugali.
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Mali naman din kasi talaga yung ginawa niya na bigla siyang sumigaw sa Online class niya during their examination. Nakakabastos 'yon lalo na yung paraan pa ng pagsasalita niya, ni hindi siya nag ask ng permission para magsalita, biglang "Hoy" Okay ba 'yon? Acceptable behaviour ba 'yon sa tingin niya? E si ma'am, hindi siya mapagsabihan sa personal kaya ako na lang yung pinagma-manage niya since lagi ko silang kasama sa personal. Ang kalmado ko naman that time, maayos ko naman siyang in-approach tapos biglang nagalit
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Ack, I missed you, watty! I have a vacant hour, I'm so stressed with these students. They are so loud and naughty but I still enjoyed observing them tho. Despite being a pain in the head, they still know how to say thank you and some of them are nice! I almost laugh out loud inside the library, they send me an edited video, it's them being a Winx character.
Gosh, my stress is back. They are fighting in their school GC, oh my!!! Wow, they have this audacity They didn't even care if there were teachers in that GC.
I'll just let the teachers handle them... Or Should I do something? I wanna cry!
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I'm paradoxical
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This stupid heart should know its place. Don't do me like this, you know how unstable I am
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Hi! Thank you for reading my stories :)
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Hi, watty. Still alive, thank you for your concern tho
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Hi, Watty. I'm here again to seek your comfort. I was ready to end it all. I'm so broken beyond repair, too tired right now. I've been bawling my eyes out. My heart hurts, it's so heavy. I want to permanently delete all my accounts at this very moment so if I di*e, I won't leave any traces behind. I want to disappear somewhere and never be found. This world is cruel.
Funny, no one will understand how hard it was to wait for someone to notice your silent pleas and cries while screaming and crying, I had no one to run to. I was all alone dealing with all my shi*ts. Losing my mind, trembling, inflicting pain on myself just so I won't lose it. I'm trying. Wala ako masabihan and I don't want people to think na I was being dramatic. No, I am not. If only they knew how tired I am. I can keep this all to myself but today I wish I had someone. Just one.