AmethystGwyneth

Hi!
          	
          	Uh, it's me again. I know - Gosh, I know how much you've suffered because of me. I was insensitive, selfish, cruel, anxious, depressed, angry, sad, hopeless, and everything awful to you -Yet in every battle I fought, you held my hand and embraced me tightly. You didn't give up on me even though I did so to myself.
          	
          	You've been my shadow as I weep in the twilight, and you've been my light as I rejoice in the dawn. How on Earth did I get to know someone like you? I don't know - Believe me, I don't know. I want to say, "I love you," but do I even deserve to cherish you after all the pain I've put you through? But at the very least, thank you.
          	
          	Thank you because behind the disappointments I made you feel, the tears you've shed for me, and all the times I was such a bastard to you, you didn't leave me. Although I've made mistakes leading to your hurting and showed you the flaws I've concealed, you accepted me. Trust me as I tell you this - You are the only genuine person ever this caring towards me.
          	
          	Why did I not trust in you? God, that was stupid of me. Why did I take you for a fool and someone insincere when they're everything you're not! You've showered me nothing but smiles, laughs, hugs, gentle caresses, and all the love you felt. And the things I poured in you? Pain, harsh words, slaps, punches, whips, blades, burdens, and hate.
          	
          	I've let you down so many times I lost count on how many. I've disappointed you in everything I do. Still, you're in front of me cheering and shouting my name so loudly, saying, "I'm proud of you!" It broke my heart as I stared at your soft gaze, realizing the nightmare I've placed in you. But everything's too late. You've given up on me by the time I got to learn of your beautiful soul.
          	
          	I'm so sorry.
          	
          	From: Me
          	To: Myself
          	
          	xoxo
          	-Intot

AmethystGwyneth

Hi!
          
          Uh, it's me again. I know - Gosh, I know how much you've suffered because of me. I was insensitive, selfish, cruel, anxious, depressed, angry, sad, hopeless, and everything awful to you -Yet in every battle I fought, you held my hand and embraced me tightly. You didn't give up on me even though I did so to myself.
          
          You've been my shadow as I weep in the twilight, and you've been my light as I rejoice in the dawn. How on Earth did I get to know someone like you? I don't know - Believe me, I don't know. I want to say, "I love you," but do I even deserve to cherish you after all the pain I've put you through? But at the very least, thank you.
          
          Thank you because behind the disappointments I made you feel, the tears you've shed for me, and all the times I was such a bastard to you, you didn't leave me. Although I've made mistakes leading to your hurting and showed you the flaws I've concealed, you accepted me. Trust me as I tell you this - You are the only genuine person ever this caring towards me.
          
          Why did I not trust in you? God, that was stupid of me. Why did I take you for a fool and someone insincere when they're everything you're not! You've showered me nothing but smiles, laughs, hugs, gentle caresses, and all the love you felt. And the things I poured in you? Pain, harsh words, slaps, punches, whips, blades, burdens, and hate.
          
          I've let you down so many times I lost count on how many. I've disappointed you in everything I do. Still, you're in front of me cheering and shouting my name so loudly, saying, "I'm proud of you!" It broke my heart as I stared at your soft gaze, realizing the nightmare I've placed in you. But everything's too late. You've given up on me by the time I got to learn of your beautiful soul.
          
          I'm so sorry.
          
          From: Me
          To: Myself
          
          xoxo
          -Intot

AmethystGwyneth

Many things have happened over the year. We hurt, cry, lose, win, and sometimes find ourselves cast adrift on a strange land. And there's no telling what you may have gone through, but you made it, love. You went through the many good and bad days, but you didn't give up. You persisted and reached the last day of the year despite the battles, and I admire you for that.
          
          There will be more uncertainty coming your way as you move forward, but I hope for it not to be the reason you want to stop walking - In fact, I wish for you not to give up. The hesitance and fear of taking on new and unforeseeable struggles may hold you back, but the magic in pure beginnings - starting from your first step - is more compelling than you may think.
          
          I hope that as you go on in the year 2022, you'll think not only about all the faults and mistakes you've made but the lessons you've learned - that all the tears you've shed, the sleepless nights you've had, and all your other sacrifices were not in vain. After all, they were part of your growth.
          
          I hope you realize that even the little kindness and love you've showered other people this year helped them. That you've proven yourself a fighter because, after many twilights of considering giving up, you didn't. Please believe in yourself as the little steps you've made have brought you this far with your blazing spirit and soul.
          
          "The future you're dreaming shall be your will to live."
          
          Happy New Year!
          
          xoxo
          -Intot

AmethystGwyneth

Oh, my gosh!
          
          I'm sorry for not updating, sweeties. I'm doing online classes, and unfortunately, I have 9 subjects and each have homework to pass with the same deadline. 
          
          AT EVERY END OF THE WEEK!
          
          I'm really sorry, everyone!
          
          Take care always, okay?
          
          I love you
          
          xoxo
          -Intot