When you realise you lost the person who supported you through all your stories , you don't regret it yet you miss your times with them. To know that if we only had met later we never would have been friends who had to break apart and that childhood immaturity can break hearts. Goodness gracious, when you see a chapter of your life and realise they were an inevitable part of you but now they are gone and you don't even regret it but just wonder what if... what if we could stay together without tearing us apart. what if i could fulfill my promise to always be on your side and be roomies when we grow up , and now when the time has come insee we are not together and i wish i could see our forever.
Will you ever see my account, if you do let's talk once more, even if you spew vitriol because i hurt you, well i was hurt too, and god if i did not love you , i would not feel so sad when all i have are wounds to show, and all i remember are the better times, for the sadder things broke my heart. Let's have a cup of coffee while i have it cold, and enjoy dark chocolate together. Do you think we could forgive each other?
Do you remember the story we used to write together? I t stopped because lockdown came, and gah it hurts my brain how I may have been better if i never met you, but that simply is not true, cuz you taught me people you care about can lie to you, and that all love is not good, especially if one drowns in despair, and the other is stuck in their saviour complex.
I miss you ex bestie, but then again i don't
i would just like to meet in a cafe and hope we can forgive each other for our childhood and only remeber the good times.
