If you even see this, please read.
TW: Mentions of self harm, suicide, depression, overall negativity, queerphobia, gayness, and me crying as I type
Hiya everyone. It's been a long time since I was last here. Like, I still read fanfic and participate in fandoms, but I stopped reading stuff for Pokemon. I fell out of it at the beginning of Alola and haven't gone back since.(I now read Drarry, Phan, Otayuri and Destiel.)
Since I was last here, so much has happened to me: I realized that I'm not straight... or a girl... so... Hi, I'm Oliver, they/them, panromantic. I have depression, have been self-harming since 2018, and I have suicidal thoughts. My family doesn't accept me as non-binary, my brother was the person who outed me back in March, and they dont think I have depression even though I've told them about it multiple times. I haven't even taken my first midterm of high school and I've already cried five times because of a disciplinary at my school. I seriously hate myself. My life is a fu cking train wreck other than my girlfriend who is honestly the only reason I don't end it all. Our 8 month anniversary is tomorrow and I can't wait.
I don't post books or poetry anymore because I feel like it's never good enough. I live drawing but I never share it because it's so fu cking terrible despite what everyone says. I'm insecure, anxious, lost, begging for death to come soon, but I'm too scared to commit something so permanent.
If you want to keep tabs on me after all this time (always), my new user is @RaindropsOnGlass715
I'd appreciate if you followed me and my Instagram accounts. (Both are in my new account's bio)
So, for the last time, goodbye everyone.
Crap, that sounds like I'm going to kill myself.
I mean that this is the last time I'll be on this account.
Well, bye everyone.
- Olive
