I think I figured out at least one part of why I haven't finished any of my projects. because when I finish something I tend to feel empty, like: now what? what do I spend my time on now that I'm not devoting most of my day to the thing?
the obvious answer is work on all my other projects when I've finished one, then when I'm done all my projects just start a new one, but that doesn't stop me from feeling hollow. what if one day I run out of project ideas? what'll I devote my time to then?
well, hopefully by then I'll have a family. then I can devote my time to raising my children. but when they're all grown up, what then?
I just don't know what to do with myself if I'm not constantly working on something, whether that's finishing reading or watching a series or writing or drawing something.
I don't really like to think that far ahead into the future, it's hard to see a future where I'm not still working on my stuff.
anyway, feel free to ignore my philosophical rambling. I'm just going to try to be less afraid of finishing things now that I know this is what's been holding me back.
also, I guess I probably won't ever run out of things to watch or read. humans are constantly creating.
please don't let this give you an existential crisis