Ari

Guess who just turned 19 
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//thanks for the follow, ari! :)

YOOOO!!!!!!
          
          
          GUESS WAT?!?!??
          
          I'M LEGAL NOW!!!!!
          
          (It's my 18th bday today lol)

I've seen a lot of open collabs on Instagram and I kinda wanna give it a try. You guys wanna join?

College have been a real stress but luckily my semester is abt to end. I got stressed real easy to the point of writing fanfiction. It got three chapters in the draft rn and I'm too scared to post it. It's Taiream btw cuz of course it is.
          
          What'd you think? Should I post it? It's kinda cringe tho 

What to do when you're sad:
          
          Step 1: say beep boop
          
          Step 2: repeat till not sad
          
          

Would you rather be chased by a lion or a shark? Indulge me

Because of that post, I'm gonna send a barrage of random post now to drown that one out 

Warning: Ari's first vent.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I usually don't do this since most of the time I post positive stuff or just straight up crack headed intrusive thoughts I got.
          
          But I just wanna write this down to, y'know complain I guess but I gotta let it out before it affects me further and weight me down. That's what my therapist told me and the next before him and the next before her and so on..
          
          So, what I want to say is...
          
          Have you guys ever like have a feeling that they don't want you there? Like, sure, you can have conversations and stuff but then they turn to their friends to chat way longer than you did with them and when you tried to chime in, they gave you a short reply before continuing to ignore you.
          
          Probably happened before.
          
          I've been told to have a good intuition and have managed to predict things a lot (movie night is a chore with me around).
          
          But I also have problems with negative thoughts too. I think I'm useless, weird, insensitive and violent. One of these thoughts are thinking that people don't really want me around and they rather that I disappear or smt. Honestly, sometimes, I think the same thing too...
          
          And usually... these thoughts are true too...
          
          Anyway, that's enough of my vent. How have you guys been doing? Haven't talked to any of you in a while and was wondering what's up? Also, this may also be the fact that college is like super lonely rn cuz a bunch of my friends are back home.
          
          Also, ignore the stuff I said here. Just need to vent some stuff. It'll sort itself out and I'll probably forget it too. Maybe even look back and think "Wow, this is cringe". 
          
          Reading back on this, I kinda sound selfish and maybe I am, idk maybe how I typed them out tho. Anyway, buh bye!

College just finished and I felt like eating something savory.
          
          They ran out of savory bread. I'm gonna eat the neighbors cat instead