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Shawn Peter Raul Mendes has turned 18 today. Wow. He's come so far in his music career. Its surreal. Im so proud of him. In my mind he's still 16 sometimes. Honestly...no kidding. Seeing how successful he's become over these past few years is incredibly amazing. Thank god im alive at the same time he is. Thank god he exists. I still cant believe he's 18...and in a way i refuse too. Haha. Im sure I'm not the only one though. I dont think anyone was ready for him to turn 18. Like EIGHTEEN. Holy crap. He can do lots of stuff now that he couldn't yesterday or the days, months and years before that. Maybe thats a reason i refuse to believe the man of my dreams, the love of my life, the man i cry tears of joy to tears of sadness over, the man i have dreams on end of, and lose focus of everything because of... is 18 years of age. Next thing we know he'll be 21. Then 25. Then 30 and so on. And it's scary. Terrifying even. Who knows what age he'll be when i meet him. God...i love him so much...so fucking damn much. The sad thing is...that he doesn't even know i exist. Who knows til what day that'll be. I hope it doesn't stay that way forever though.
Happy Birthday to My stunning Muffin Man. I hope the best for him. He deserves it. I hope he's safe, healthy, happy, and full of love at all times. I love him with all there is to me, and if something bad were to happen to him I'd go insane, because he's one of 4 persons that can and have kept me sane. Im so very thankful for it. I love Shawn Peter Raul Mendes and no one or anything can ever change that.