My throat…it hurts.
My head betrays me.
My face is so hot it burns to shut my eyes.
I feel dizzy.
I feel controlled.
I am so hot yet I am freezing.
I am covered in goosebumps.
I quiver under my blanket like a small dog.
Tears roll down my cheeks.
Tears cool my burning face.
I stand.
I fall.
I curl into a ball.
I let out a cough that wracks my body.
I let out a whimper.
I let out a cry.
It hurts.
Oh how it hurts.
I wonder of life.
I wonder of friends.
I don't know what's wrong.
I don't know if I'm ok.
My body hurts.
My body lies.
My body betrays.
It betrays my instincts to defy weakness.
I wonder of my love.
I wonder of my sister.
I wonder…if they are ok.
"Please," I beg, "tell me they are."
"For if they aren't I can not save."
"For I am too weak."
Forgive me my love.
Forgive me my forgive me my sister.
Forgive me my friends, where ever you are.
I…
…Am…
…Sorry…