I fall in love with things that hurt me
I fall in love with people who hurt me
I fall in love
I fell in love
I am still in love
I will always be in love, I'm sorry...

I date things that are impulsive and sometimes embarrassing
I hate things that actually care about me, I feel it's all lies
I feel suffocated in certain relationships
I am scared to fall in love again
I know I won't fall in love with the person I'm dating right now
Who said your skin wasn't paper? Who said a knife wasn't actually a pencil?
Who said that I was happy? Who said that I was okay? Who said that I was fine?

People know me as two-faced, no I am just a 'nice' bitch
People know me as a liar, uh, no... I love you, and that's the truth. I love being your friend/more.
I want back into foster care, puh-leeze...
I want this stress to go away
I want these stupid fights to stop
I want you to just stop
I want to stop.... but I can't
Maybe I can make me stop, by stopping everything. By finally ridding the world of one sharp thorned rose. Maybe I can just let go and never look back, maybe I can hurt everybody at once while making them SO happy too......

Or maybe I am just done, with everything.

10-19-2018