AngelicDevil731

Okay quick question: how do you explain something to someone with a slight language barrier?
          
          To explain, I have a friend who shuts me out every time I try to explain how what he said isn’t in the right context. For instance while we were thinking of dating, he kept saying things like “I’ll make you like this” or “I’ll get you hooked on that.” These things upset me because it came across as very controlling when he thought he was being affectionate, but the minute I tried to explain why I was upset at him, he shut down calling himself stupid or a problem. 

So I hit a deer with my dad’s car which is causing major anxiety and my older brother is treating me like my request to leave the cats downstairs until I was done with one of my chores was unreasonable because they hadn’t been up for two days. 

Have you ever been compared to someone? Especially someone you’ve had next to nothing to do with or possibly even hate? 
          
          My dad continuously compares me to his sister. We both have a strong distaste for her because she’s both a liar and a cheat. I’m more like him than I am like his sister. Why? Because I’ve spent less than a month with her in my entire 24+ years of living. Today isn’t the first time I’ve been compared to her, but every time he compares me to her I want to cry and just give up. However, I simply am unable to give up because I would forever feel like a failure if I ever did give up. 

I’m working on an actual story right now for you guys to read. I aspire to actually be an author aside from my gig on here, but I’m not very confident in my stories which led me to actually write a story for you guys. Please let me know what you think once it starts coming out, but don’t be rude or mean just because it’s not to your liking 

Thanks for the follow

Reasons why some people piss me off: 
          
          1) Lack of respect towards opinions. Recently in a MHA/BNHA group, I stated that I don’t like the main character. He’s often compared to other main characters, but each of those characters have flaws that could be considered as fatal flaws. Deku has no such flaw after 5 seasons. On the other hand, I love many other facets of MHA including the character development especially on side characters. My opinions are coming from my background as a writer.
          
          2) Telling someone else to leave a fandom. This has to do with the first thing, but it isn’t the first time. Under no circumstances is it okay to hate on someone for opinions or comments, but oftentimes that’s what people do in fandoms. We all like things for different reasons why are we trying to make others leave? 
          
          And 3) Lying to my face when it’s obvious. I really want to wear some jewelry, but my aunt lied saying my father had it. She’s the one who said I’d get when I’m old enough to respect it. Guess what I’m a full fledged adult (meaning over 21) now. If my dad had the jewelry in question I’d already be wearing it. 

Does anyone else do things because they miss someone or am I the only one? 
          
          I’m replaying a game because I miss the person who introduced me to it. That’s why I’m asking. 

I mentioned I’m heavy set, but I didn’t mention how flexible or strong I am. I walk around barefoot all the time at home, so sometimes my feet get really dirty. When I notice how dirty they are, I tend to go wash them, but instead of sitting to do that, I lift my leg up to the sink. It’s not difficult, but it definitely stretches muscles that I don’t use on a regular basis. I can also half squat while keeping my leg up that high. Today, I found out that I can do it at the kitchen sink as well. It’s just more of a stretch. 
          
          Also my mom laughed at me for even trying…

Just another rant about my dad:
          
          I was raised to do as I was asked to. It’s not that hard, and it doesn’t even take that long most of the time. My mom asked me to bring in the package of string cheese from the garage refrigerator, so when I got back into the house, my dad gets mad at me for doing what I was told to do. Thankfully my mom stepped in to say that she asked me to do it. 
          
          Then today he suggested we have grilled cheese for dinner. We all agreed, but we all like different cheeses. I asked my mom to cut the cheddar cheese for her sandwich because I struggle to get the knife all the way through the big block, so my dad started harping on the fact that I consistently ask for help. Note that I had a broken neck, and it still causes many issues. What really upset me was what my father said about me asking for help. He said “if she can’t even make a single meal without help, then she’ll never be able to run a household as a mother!” It’s one of my greatest fears that I won’t be a good mother, but I know I can rely on my friends and family to help me. By the sounds of it, my dad would be unwilling to help me which really hurts. 
          
          What do you guys think? Is it wrong to ask for help or should I ask for help no matter what my father says?

Just as an example of why my mental health isn’t the best and it’s a slight rant so don’t feel obligated to continue reading:
          
          Being Father’s Day, you’d think my father would not be in the mood to argue, but nope, today was worse than most. First, he gets mad at me because I asked for someone else to put away the food because my back is killing me from making dinner. My older brother stepped in and said I was whining when in reality I was just trying to explain my point. 
          
          Later, we were discussing equality, and my dad got all huffy about something I said and was telling my I was wrong without letting me finish. He took my words in a different way than the one I meant them as, and then, he proceeded to tell me that I was the one in the wrong. He was treating me like a jerk-faced idiot, so I told him to stop. His reply was “then stop acting like one.” I wasn’t trying to be one, but that’s how it almost always goes. 
          
          It makes me wonder. “Why am I always the one in the wrong?” “Why does he always complain about the things done wrong instead of thanking me for what I do right?” The list continues, but this is all I’ll post because my mental health is trying to enter the spiral negativity that leads to the black hole of depression.