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She's not worth your time at this point. Slowly cut her off, my dear. She's not compatible with you as a friend anymore.

I'm back with my depressive thoughts.

I'm aware that I'm getting attached again... 

That... kinda hurts ngl. It's okay, I'm used to it.

Kenapa aku dpt offer tu in the first place? Kenapa aku rasa mcm nak kena mental breakdown? Kenapa semuanya rasa suffocating dan overwhelming? Kenapa? Kenapa? Kenapa? Aku penat. 

...I'm very much aware that I become so easily triggered than before.

Syafiqah is a bit... aggressive lately. Dia punya marah tadi hampir nak explode depan semua orang. Nasib Balqis step in nak tenangkan dia. Balqis, on the other hand, feels a bit sensitive of her surrounding. She's healing, sure, but no one said that healing is a linear process. I'm trying so hard to keep them in balance. Hopefully I'll be able to make peace with my ownself one day. 

I want to stop feeling like shit. No matter what I do, I feel like a failure. 

I often forgot that external factor also plays a crucial role. It's no use if i know how to be gentle with myself if my home environment is a total wreck

You got the Vice Chancellor Award. Congratulations. You did well ♡