I want to unalive me

Hi ich wolte mal nach fragen ob du mir eine gute symbrock story emfehlen kannst weil ich finde kaum welche.
          Viel dank im vorhinaus

I’m back with the milk bitches✨
          
          And I have so much to tell y'all like 2022 left with a big ass bang but I am back

My rabbit is not doing well and my mom keeps pestering me that we should put him to rest
          But I can’t let him go, It’s so fucking selfish but I just can’t. I don’t want to walk in. A room where he isn’t sleeping in my shelf on his favorite blanket  I don’t want to sit in mz bed with out hearing him munching on some straw I don’t want to get up to feed 3 instead of 4 pets 
          I don’t want to be with out him, he’s been with me for 7 years I thought he would be with me this Christmas and when I graduate 
          The thing is there’s no going back if I say yes he’s going to be gone and nothing can bring him back I would never see him again he would never sit in my shelf he would never do his little happy dance when i give him food or simply look at me he would just be gone 
          And what if he would have healed but I just took that from him and basically killed him for nothing?

Why is making friends so hard?
          I just tried to make friends on reddit but it’s not working. They’re either old, weird or not interested in talking with me 
          
          I just want some friends :(

I started watching Peaky Blinders on Netflix and well I NEED more Arthur Shelby fanfictions.
          I found like 108 but that’s simply not enough.
          That man deserves more fanfics, more love, more everything in fact he deserves the whole mothertucking world cause he’s just so fucking precious 
          

I just realized something.
          In english testicles are usually called balls, like the round thing that’s chased by soccer players.
          Example: she kicked me into my balls
          Meanwhile in german testicles (= Hoden) are called "Eier" which you can translate to "eggs", like the thing that’s produced by chickens. 
          Example: sie hat mir in meine Eier getreten.
          And that’s the first time, that I think that the german version makes more sense. I mean they’re shaped like eggs so why would you call them balls? Even though „she kicked me into my eggs“ does  sound a bit stupid.
          That was your free german lesson, I hope you enjoyed it :)
          

The bakery that I was talking about didn’t take me. (Fick dich Heitzmann)
          Which sucks cause I’m fucking broke and I actually planned to buy Splatoon 3 as soon as it gets released but I can’t because I’m b r o k e.
          Now I’m sitting in my bed drinking cheap ass wine, angry but also sad af and bleeding out of my ducking vagina. Great
          I also finished every Thomas Shelby x male reader/ male oc FanFiction that I could find so now my life is absolutely meaningless 
          God I hate monday 

Guys do you know that feeling, when someone tells you how they have been and they are doing great so you’re happy for them but at the same time you’re salty about it and wish that they would be as miserable as you are?

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I just had a massive mental breakdown but my cat saved me and now I’m picking fights with random people on Yt (even though my grammar  is fucked right now cause it’s like 2am BUT I’m owning it) maybe life isn’t so bad after all. 
          Ok who am I kidding? My life as well as my mental health is a mess right now and I’m just 
          shutting everything out but yeah I almost lost my cool there